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..ahh di parin ako makaget over! langya!

2006-08-21T17:11:00.000+08:00

sakit na legs ko pare... grabe pamatay! tindi ng training.

ay puta! may isshare ako di parin ako makaget over sa nangyare kanina sa training...
langya yun! well actually kasalanan ko, masiyado kasing nang gigil sa kalaban dapat kasi relax lang (di ako marunong magrelax.. yun ang problema eh!)

and kwento...

kasi nag sparring (2 rounds) kami kanina, kalaban ko proveda blue belt (so higher belt siya sakin kasi yellow lang ako..)

1st round... sige ayos natamaan ko sa ulo.. nakakascore pako. score 4-2 (ako yung 4!)
2nd round na... ay putek nang gigil si kim makascore ulit... natamaan sa ulo (dun ako nang gigil ng tuluyan..) tapos parang pinaglalaruan ko siya, ginagamit ko kalikutan ko (may use rin pala yun.. haha.) tapos sige lang.. tapos nagkasabay kame ng sipa.. tumba si kim! nahirapan nako huminga nun, ayan na *tatananan!* sugod mga kapatid! puta! di na nagiisip (gigil na sa paglaban..) tapos nung tapos na final score 4-4 (draw! puta!) sayan talga yun oh! lamang na siguro may chance pako manalo nun kung di lang ako nang gigil. damn! di talaga ako makaget over dun! nakakabadtrip!

... ang laking sayang. ang to the fact na first time ko makipag sparring ng ganyan. sa higher belt pa. haaaayy nako kim! nasasayangan talaga ko dun! pwede pa manalo kaso masiyadong nanggigil! kainis! ahhh!

pag uwi ko sa bahay tnry ko matulog, langya di ako makatulog kakaisip dun sa nangyare. tapos sinapak ko yung cabinet. tapos tinawag ko ang aking royal squire, joke lang. haha. tinawag ko ang aking ama. at inutusan (talagang inutusan eh noh.. basta sabi ko practice niya ko...) ko na hawakan ang kickpad at ipractice ako. haha. kahit panu may napala ako.. sana makatulog nako mamayang gabi. ayoko na! gusto ko ulitin yung nangyare kanina! sayang talaga eh! damn it!

.. embrace so mugh tighter, this could be our last togethter.

2006-07-31T21:39:00.000+08:00

"is this the beginning of our last dance? once around the floor can we do it again? i feel the thrill i words we say 'i love you!'.. embrace so mugh tighter, this could be our last togethter. heaven sheds tears for wounded hearts. out forever has been torn apart."

i dont know what to do anymore, ewan ko na nga eh. gulo na ng mundo. i just have to get this of my chest, if thats ok with you. ang bigat na kasi ng pakiramdam eh.

sa totoo lang, miss ko na siya, alam ko magkasama kame/ magkatext/magkausap... pero i dont know kahit na magkatext kame, magkausap or magkasama... miss ko parin siya. parang di siya yung kasama k0. its not the same. lalo na nung friday evening, pagkadating sa school from field trip. haaayy... nagkita pa kame, late na siya nasundo or somthing... kawawa nga siya eh gutom na. kung alam ko lang sana binilihan ko siya ng food. tsk! damn phone! oh ayun nga.. nung nagkita kame, sobrang natuwa kasi kala ko di kame magkikita nung araw na yun tapos sobrang miss ko na siya. oo nga, masaya yung field trip pero lam mo yung iniisip ko parin siya habang nagffield trip kame. tapos yun nga nagkita kame, nakompleto na araw ko. saya ko na nun, kulang nalang tumalon talon pako. tapos paglapet ko sa kanya... wow! kumaway lang! (..damn! excited pa man din ako nung time na yun.) grabe... wala man lang kamusta o kung ano. kaway lang! oh come on! i was just standing there, tapos parang "okey, so andito ko sa harap niya. di man lang nangangamusta... what am i doing here? can you atleast talk to me.." parang.. damn! nakakdepress bigla "thats it? kaway lang?" una ko pang narinig ata na sinabi niya is "gusto ko na umuwi" at di pa ako yung kausap niya ah, pero i was there. ewan ko pero nung time na yun sobrang gusto ko na umuwi at magpaulan, pero hindi ko siya naiwan. nalungkot talaga ako nung time na yun. haaayyy... binili ko pa siya ng apple pie at chocnut. i could've bought her food pero i didn't know that she was still in school. so parang sayang! wala lang, sobrang thank you daw kasi gutom na siya, tapos parang oh sige. kainis! sana talaga binili ko na siya ng food! (damn phone!)

gusto ko na umuwi nung time na yun, kaso hinintay ko pa...baka magiba ihip ng hangin. but no! para ngang ang lamig pa nung panahong yun eh. di pa ata niya ko namiss eh. iniisip ko nga baka sinasabi lang niya na miss niya ko pero di naman talaga (pero feeling ko lang yun... di ko naman sinasabi na yun talaga yun) sobrang namimiss ko na talaga siya sobra! nasan na kaya yung talagang "monster" na mahal ko? san na yun nagpunta? di ko na siya maramdaman eh. alam ko andiyan siya pero di ko talaga nafeel. (sana naiintindihan..) parang ibang tao yung kasama ko. parang ang naiisip ko lahat ng "imissyoutoo" at "iloveyoutoo" niya pilit (pero please...dont get me wrong, these are my own opinion... im not saying na yun na talaga yun.)

isang beses ko lang naramdaman si "monster" and that was last thursday. sobrang siya talaga yun, nafeel ko eh! andun yung certain feeling kapag andiyan siya. pero nung anghiwalay kame para umuwi... wala na... sobrang kisapmata yung nangyare eh. nakakatakot lang talaga. wala pako masabe sa kanya last sunday.sobtang paikot ikot lang yung nga messages namen. di ko lang kung anung nangyayare. gusto ko tulungan siya, pero parang wal ako natutulong. a simple sorry wont do any good. ang lamig talaga!

one day time out... haay time out muna... para naayos ang utak na pagkagulo gulo. maraming iniisip/naiisip ('its noly your mind that fills itself with dirty images") ang hirap! hhhmm... baka bigla niyong tanungin bakit one day time out?? kasi di ko nakayanan... sobrang nung tinanung ko kung kamusta siya... di ko nagustuhan yung mga natinig ko and made me say "what have i done?!" pinigil ko lang sarile ko dahil inisip ko baka gusto niya nakapag isa. pero i dont know... di ko nakayanan na malaman na ganun nangyayare sa kanya. sobrang im seriously blaming myself for what happened today. gusto ko siya lapita, pero di ko alam kung panu. sobrang lahat ng nakita/marinig/maalala/etc. related sa kanya... damn! panu ka pa makakatagal nun? tapos nung malaman ko pa yung status niya (weh status. gusto pa.) sobtang ayoko na... tama na toh man! we cant live like this for 2 whole weeks. pamatay!

"nothing cam make this better, our answers seldom come. damage by the words you say! sound the alarm, what we have built is gone! out battles just begun. mayday! mayday!"

"i feel so alone this situations desperate. until o found my life again i drown. so save me now...awaken this sleeping heart of mine., and be here now."

"all eyes on you, the world is yours! sold my soul im a victim to the world tonight. come and rescue me from harm."

"hurting the ones that i love, seeing the tears coming down. i am weak i have failed you again! i have failed you again! i am weak i have failed you again!"

"put all of my faith in you now. when all of the world says we wont make i through, we'll battle the world!"

...ayun! sobrang kinailangan ko lang ilabas. di pa tapos yan. kailangan ko lang talaga umuwi...

"could've been more, can we ever have these feelings again?
should've been more... maybe in time we'll realize that
fate reveals the remedy make it feel like...just like the first time"

much has been said

2006-07-24T19:39:00.000+08:00

... ngayon, ang hirap explain yung nararamdaman ko. ang hirap kasi masakit sakin, dahil nasaktan ko siya. eto nanaman po ako. nakakainis naman, kung kelan tumagal kame chaka ako nagkaganito. bakit pa kasi ako nagreact dun sa group message niya. yan tuloy. tsk! i mde a mistake! i kept it from her, now she knows and nasaktan ko nanaman siya... this is the 2nd time i did this. damn it! when will i learn?? pero it also hurts me, knowing i hurt her again... this time its serious. shes not just mad or angry... how should i put this based on her messages and the way i understood it...shes furius! lets just say dahil sa nalaman niya, im afraid she would never forgive me. but i just wish she would give me a second chance. i cant stand doing this to her. i only see 2 options for this...

1) second chance... (self explanatory)

2) go our separate ways... (why?) its too much, this is the second time. i dont want to hurt her anymore. if shes having a hard time with me and sick and tired of the stupid shit that i always do. and if she is sick and tired of my attitude, hell! i already tried to change this... and its really hard to do. i keeps coming back. (old habits die hard). i can let her go, not because of the problem, because i dont want her to get hurt again because of me. and if thats the only soution i have...for her sake, ill take it. even if it hurts that much.. i have to! i know, i know... call me crazy, pero its the only way she wont get hurt again.

... here another thing... i lies to her. i denied that problem. (you must be wondering... what the problem? do you have to know? its something personal and i dont want it to escape the little circle of people who knows the problem. sorry.) bago pa niya malaman yung problem na yun may nagsabe sa kanya... nd i denied it. i thought i could just put the problem in my own hands and not make her worry that i have a problem. i dont her to know, para in case na ngkalabuan... she wont blame herself. ako yung may problema hindi siya. i dont know kung anu ang pagkaintindi niya dun. pero its hard to explain.

Much has been said
Said you never leave
Why’d it have to be
Harder than it had to be
Don’t you throw blame
You were a part of this
Wasn’t suppose to end
With us just walking away
So many times we tried
Holding on to the pain but in my baby’s eyes I see my shame
Asking why you had to leave
Wasn’t I strong enough to make you see
That the biggest part of this
It’s not about you and me
But just be wrong if we held on
Maybe tomorrow we’ll find
A taste for the old days hard lessons
We’ve left behindThis mirrors an open door
I can barely stand to see myself
I don’t know what to do anymore
I’m crying out for help
Ohh Lord
Much has been said
Will I never learn
Keeping my fingers crossed
Praying for my luck to turn
But I can’t complain
I’m living it easy
Job’s keeping me busy
Going crazy
Can’t describe the way it felt
When you left said your goodbyes
It just seems crazy for me to think
That I’ll find love a second time
But we all know how it all wraps up in the end
Maybe tomorrow we’ll find
Ohhh Lord…
What am I leaving behind
Sweet how we see the big picture when your life’s not on the line
I know the way out but do you see what I see
A tortured life always second guessing the bookie
Put money on the table thought that was all I had to do
Never came home
Never said a word to you
No one ever said it was going to be easy…Easy start over again this time this time
Let’s do it right
Start over again this time this time
Let’s keep the fires burning

..if mau, if you are reading this... im really really sorry! i know this is too much. you must be sick and tired of me doing these things over and over again. i just wan you to know that i stil love you. ayaw ko na pahiirapan ka pa, hirap rin kasi ng feeling knowing na nasaktan kita. just tell me kung pagod ka na o nahihirapan ka na sakin, thats all i need to know and hear fromm you. its not about the problem or about liking her (mau, you know who) its about you, its about us. i want to work things out and i still want to be happy with you. im really really sorry! wala nakong mahaharap na muka sayo. pero im still here, asking for another chance. im sorry! i love you so much! dont forget that.

Now tell me is this the only way I can get you right back in
If so then searchin' I'll go, then I can have you for sho
Then you'll be loving me, holding me, kissing me
So girl don't tell me what I'm feeling is make believe
I swear if I lose a second chance with you
I wouldn't know what to do
I'd probably check myself into some kind of clinic
I couldn't be alone because without you I'm sick
heres my wish list...

First one, I would create a heart changing love
Second one, I'll take yours and fill it all the way up
Third one, but I don't need a lot of wishes cause I'll be okay if I get one

If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby
If I had one wish, I'd make you my whole life
And you'd be my wife, make it right this time
If I had one wish...

I'm Sorry!

...malapet na magbirthday ang nine!

2006-07-05T20:07:00.000+08:00

..hindi ko inakala na aabot! putek! birthday na! hindi na normal toh para sakin, i mean hindi normal na umabot ng ganito katagal... grabe! hindi mo lang alam... haay nako!

wala lang! parang ang tagal lang na sobrang siya lang... di nga ako nagsasawa eh! wow! may sakit pala ako! di ako ganito dati ah! di nga ako makatagal ng 5 months eh... haha. grabe! iba na toh! sabi ko nga "red horse extra STRONG! ITO ANG TAMA!" weh! talagang beer eh noh? pero anu ba talaga masgusto ko? ang beer na toh o ang pagibig mo? weh anu bayan! tagal na! oh my gosh! may sakit na ata ako! joke! malakas lang ang tama nitong alak na ito! sobrang lakas! di kaya ng powers ko... masiyado! hanep! kung anu anu na naiisip kong gawin para lang sa kanya, na di ko kaya gawin sa sarili ko... i mean basta! secret nalang yun! weh! bigla akong napaisip ng bastos dun ah! hahaha. nyak! wala lang! nakakatawa! weh... (nagugugtom nako!!!)

wala lang! ganda niya...(oh! walang kokontra!) haaay nako... nakakabaliw kaya siya! di lang niya alam ang nangyayari sakin pag nakikita ko siya or pag nagssmile siya sakin, parang ang saya bigla ng feeling tapos wala lang...parang san mig light pare.. (hahaha.) tapos... pag bell na or andiyan na sundo niya/ko grabe nakakamiss agad! as in pagtalikod ko palang sa kanya, gusto ko tumakbo sa kanya tapos yakapin siya ng super higpit..(weh! ang landi!) pero seryoso, nakakamiss siya kahit sobrang onting panahon palang na di ko na siya nakikita. katulad ngayon, miss ko na siya! kahit na katext ko siya... alamo yun! wala lang! yun nalang muna masasabe ko!

kababawan..

2006-04-01T01:04:00.000+08:00

im sorry... i was hungry at the same time jealous!

2006-04-01T00:56:00.000+08:00

im soooo sorry if this post made you hungry and crave for food!

but i was...
...hungry!
... jealous!
...scared!

something to talk about...

2006-04-01T00:38:00.000+08:00

ang cool noh?

their chilling in the snow...while were melting under the sun and roasting our a**es!

oh well... its summer baby!

hottah hottah!

bat di tayo magpalamig katulad nila??

bakit kailangan pang mangitim pag nakbilad sa araw...
eh sila di naman umiitim... puti parin! kainis! and i have to suffer like this!
di na nga pantay kulay ko...
bakit? bakit? bakiiit? tsk!

ma--weeee! wahahaha! yeah boi!

magugutom nako! haha!

how about apple pie from mcdo? huh? /=)

gusto ko kumain ng... hhhmmmm... skyflakes! weh?
skyflakes ba talaga?! ohh baka naman mawgic flakes?! hahaha!
hala anu yan!

2006-03-05T15:33:00.000+08:00

2006-02-14T03:53:00.000+08:00

tulog na siya! pinuyat ko siya! nooooo! bad kim! bad!

hala na! mamaya inaantok nanaman siya! at kasalanan ko! nooooo!
masama ako!

skittles... sorry na ah! pinuyat kita! soooo soooo sorry! =l

ayun... nako! anu bayan!? gising parin ako! langya!

ay! may kagagguhan akong ginawa... i told her wala akong gift for her ngayong araw na ito, but in fact nakabili nako last month pa. i just wanted to surprise her, but instead i got carried away... sa kakapilit na wala akong gift for her. so i kinda punched the wall behind her, and yung what do you call that..... ah! my knuckles hit the cement wall first so it hurts! so stupid! and there you have it! special effect gone bad! nooo! but seriously...it was stupid! really stupid! the things i do huh? tsss.... stupid! oh well! "stupid is stupid does". haha. =D

ladies and gents... we have successfully made a customized shirt!! booyah! hahaha. yeah! =D

thats it pancit...canton! weh! "boring mo" in the words of skittles. haha. sige! im going to take a bath. weh! bulgar! haha. =D wanna join me? just kidding! okey! babye!

2006-02-14T02:37:00.000+08:00

hala na! valantines day na!!! lagot! niyank! ang bitter! dami kasing mga gaain ngayong mga panahong ito! kaya di ko maappreiate valentines...kahit na lam niyo na. daming sagabal! haha. nga hadlang na nagpapalakas sa...ay! ang jologs! haha. enought! enought! anu ba meron sa araw na ito? at kailangan ganito pa ang mangyari sakin, umaga na may pasok pa... at nagppost ako dito! whats this hah?? kalokohan! haha. wala naman ako sasbihin! natripan ko lang. ayun! sige! goodluck sa inyo on this bloody day. haha. mdugo pala... sa mga meron lang yan!

aaahhh! speaking of awa...

ang manhid ko dun sa mga namatay sa ultra.... mahid! as in ang nasabe ko nalang... mga desperado kasi! masiyadong excited! hala na! manhid! putek yang sagot na yan! nakakabaliw! i mean... almost everyone around me keeps on talking about that incident and i would just say... "anu bayan?! yan nanaman" manhid talaga. i mean sabi sakin ni skittles wala daw ba akong awa? sabi ko... may awa ako pero di sa mga ganun! tapos sabi niya wala na daw akong pagasa! hala na! anu yun? masama nalang ako forever, like what she always tell me. anu bayan?! tapos parang ako... masama na talaga ako forever. ibang klase!

pero.... mabait ko.... pag kulang sa tulog at inaantok! wag lang i wrong timing na gutom at hb! nako! wrong move. haha. ayun. sobrang nung time na yun... naawa ako dun sa toad... i mean kung pano siya ipaparalize for dissection. wow! first time? haha. ayun! hanggang ngayon..kulang pa sa tulog... kaya sige lang. enjoy the moment! weh. limited time only! di ganun kadali ng pagiging mabait ko. haha. hirap man! pero sometimes... no choice!

haaaayyy..... nako! bitter! bitter! parang may masmang nangyayare! masiyado! haha. anu bayan!? ayun! wala na... wala nako masabe! haha. =D sige! hanngang dito nalang!

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!! SA NGA MASASAYA AT HINDI PAGOD! =d

can't do anything

2006-02-06T00:17:00.000+08:00

hey! whats up? as usual, im goin to talk about non-sense again..maybe for you. but for me... well.. my blog, my rules! haha. just kidding.

what do you want to hear? nothing... i just cound't figure out what to do.. today. its 12:28 in the morning. im not yet sleepy. haha. just here... texting skittlesmonsteeerr! haha. still up. the person beside me is playing the song "much ha been said". theres something wrong with this picture. haha.

... V- day is comin up. uuuhhh...okey...what now? nothng really. im not really excited about that day, cause... wala lang... its just a day. (*gasp! i can believe i said that)

here is a song... kinda old school... its one of the soundtracks in GTA: vice city
sooo here is "i just died in your arms tonight". hehe.

Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must have been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight

I keep looking for something I can't get
Broken hearts lie all around me
And I don't see an easy way to get out of this
Her diary it sits on the bedside table
The curtains are closed, the cats in the cradle
Who would've thought that a boy like me could come to this

Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight
Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been some kind of kiss
I should've walked away, I should`ve walked away

Is there any just cause for feeling like this?
On the surface I'm a name on a list
I try to be discreet, but then blow it again
I've lost and found, it's my final mistake
She's loving by proxy, no give and all take'cos
I've been thrilled to fantasy one too many times

Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight
Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must been some kind of kiss
I should`ve walked away, I should've walked away

It was a long hot night
She made it easy, she made it feel right
But now it's over the moment has gone
I followed my hands not my head, I knew I was wrong

Oh I, I just died in your arms...
Oh I,I just died in your arms...

haha. wala lang. hehe.

heres a song para dun sa mga nagLQ. weh gusto pa. haha.

"tensionado" by soapdish

Tensionado, nagulat din ako
No'ng malaman na hindi lang pala ako
'Yung nanghinayang no'ng nag-away tayo noon
At natuluyan sa iyakan at tampo

At sandali lang, huwag ka munang magsalita
'Di ko hahayaan lahat ito ay mawala
Ang iniisip ko kung pwede pa ba tayo

At miserable, paulit-ulit lang
Ang nangyayari paikot-ikot tayo
Parang bote at nasanay ka na ba doon
At nalimutan ang aking mga tanong

At hindi malinaw, pwede bang 'wag kang sumigaw
'Di ko hahayaaan lahat ito ay maligaw
Nagtatanong sa 'yo kung pwede pa ba tayo

At sandali lang, huwag ka munang magsalita
'Di ko hahayaan lahat ito ay mawala
At sandali lang, huwag ka munang magsalita
Ba't ko hahayaan pati ikaw ay mawala
Nagtatanong sa 'yo kung pwede pa ba tayo

yan... kasi may mali sa mga nangyayare ngayong araw na ito... kaya ayun.

sige! hanggang dito nalang muna! bbye! tc! haha.

pano kaya yun?

2006-01-15T01:25:00.000+08:00

bakit ba kasi ganito buhay? masiyadong magulo. lahat nalang nahuhulog sa iyakan! di na naayos... oo nga, ngingiti ka at sasaya... pero sa dulo... and bagsak mo luhaan at miserable!
at kung talagang mahal mo ang isang tao... gagawin mo lahat para lang maging ok kayo.

pano na kung... nagkagusto siya sa kaibigan mo... as in close friend pa!
OUCH! oo nga! at hindi na katuad ng dati... may gap na. hindi na kayo confortble sa isa't - isa. naiilang na kayo. at pag nakikita mo yung crush niya... iba yung feeling, na halos di mo maexplain kung anu yung nararamdaman mo pag andiyan yung crush niya.

although siguro matutuwa ka ng ONTI.. as in onti lang dahil naging honest siya at inamin niya sayo kung ano na ang mga nangyayari sa kanya. pero nasaktan ka rin naman sa nalaman mo. tapos hindi mo maalis sa isip mo na ganun nga ang nararamdaman niya, kahit na di niya sinasadiya na mangyari yun, kahit wala saiyang balak na magkagusto dun... masakit parin. kahit nung nagsorry siya... sinabi mong pinatawad mo na siya... oo nga napatawad mo na, pero andun parin ang mapait na alaala ng pag amin niya na crush niya kaibigan mo. hindi mo na maalis diba? kahit anung kalimot ang gawin mo, kahit sobrang halos mga ibang bagay - bagay nakakalimutan mo yung ang ang natatanging bagay na ayaw matanggal sa utak mo. as in yung pinaka ayaw mo nagstay as a memory yung pa yung di mo makalimutan. bakit ba kasi ganun? ang gulo gulo ng mundo.

kaya nga bago magstart yung school year na ito napaisip isip ko na wag nang umibig ulit...kaso... sabi nga ng isang tao sakin... "hanggang salita lang yan" yeah! she was right. why?

pero seryoso, ang hirap magbago diba? but if your really determined to change for that person/for the better... gagawin mo talaga. kahit gano pa kahirap yun.

kailangan talaga ng tiwala... kaso minsan ang hirap magtiwala ng sobra sa isang ta... pano pa kaya pag muntikan ka nang mawalan ng tiwala sa kanya... parang ang hirap ibalik nung nga nawala. kahit na sobrang mahal mo pa ayos lang... susubukang kalimutan, pero ayaw! sana kasi madali gawin yung "FORGIVE AND FORGET!" pero hindi! madaling sabihin, mahirap gawin. di kayo magtatagal pag walang tiwala. the moment na maalan ka/siya/kayo ng tiwala... its really hard to rebuild trust again.

mararamdaman mo ba na sincere siya? pano kung acting lang yun. magaling siya umarte... pinapagana nanaman ang mga "Special Effects" niya sayo. kakagat ka ba ulit. pano kung, akala mo effects niya yun pala totoo na na sobrang sincere siya sa pagsorry niya. di mo pinansin. oh wow! siyempre... after niya aminin sayo... magiging cold ka kasi nga... nasaktan ka. umiyak ka pa nga dahil lang dun. masakit yun!

mapapaisip ka rin minsan...
anu ba mas magandang gawin?

a) aminin sa kanya, pero masasaktan siya baka magkalabuan pa. hindi niya pa ako mapatawad nito. pero at least inamin ko

or

b) itago sa kanya, pero mas masakita pag nalaman niya sa ibang tao. mapatawad ka kaya niya pag nalaman niya sa iba.

or

c) iwan mo na, para di mo siya masasaktan ulit. at pagkatapos nun.. tapos na!

pero kahit may options ka, magulo parin. parang talagang di matupad tupad ang mga balak mo. gusto mo gumawa ng mga possible solutions sa conflict niyo pero parang ang lumalabas na solution ay bumabagsak sa either A, B or C talagang may masasaktan.

at parang ayaw niya tapusin kayo. parang biglang gusto mo na kumawala nung time that you found out na gusto niya kaibigan mo, kaso parang nagdadalawan isip ka na gawin yun kasi nga mahal mo pa siya.

oh? panu na kaya yun? hala na! magisip isip ka muna ng mabuti! baka magkamali ka pa sa disisyon mo. mataimtimang pagiisip ito. malamig pero... bear with it...

kung kasalanan mo ito, make your choice. pag magsosorry ka, be sincere! as in whole heart sincere! walang biruan. if you plan to promise something to that person, make sure you wont break it. make sure na you would do anything jut to make it up to that person. seryosohin mo siya. dont take that person for granted! dapat loyal... gawin lahat para maging loyal! (wag gumaya sakin! please lang!)

okey, hanggang dito nalang... nobela nanaman ito! bye! ayos na ah! matino na dapat! ayusin ang buhay! YOU'LL GET BY WITH A SMILE =D

para sayo...

2006-01-15T00:43:00.000+08:00

lumayo kana sa akin wag mo kong
kausapin parang awa mo na
wag kang magpapaakit sakin
ayoko nang masaktan ka
malakas ay mambobola
hindi ako santo

pero para sayo
ako'y magbabago
kahit mahirap kakayanin ko
dahil para sayo
handa akong magpakatino
laging isipin lahat ay gagawin
basta para sayo

hindi ikaw ung tipong niloloko
at hindi naman ako yung tipong nagseseryoso
at kahit sulit sana sayo ang kasalanan
lolokohin lang kita
kaya kung pwede wag nalang
dahil ayoko nang masaktan ka
wag kang maniniwala
hindi ako santo

pero para sayo
ako'y magbabago
kahit mahirap kakayanin ko
dahil para sayo
handa akong magpakatino
laging isipin lahat ay gagawin
basta para sayo

bakit nakikinig kapa
matatapos na ang kanta
pinapatakas na kita
mula nung una
hindi kaba natatakot
baka ikaw ay masangkot
sa mga kasalanan ko

pero para sayo
ako'y magbabago
kahit mahirap kakayanin ko
dahil para sayo
handa akong magpakatino
laging isipin lahat ay gagawin
basta para sayo ako'y magbabago
kahit mahirap kakayanin ko
dahil para sayo handa akong magpakatino
laging isipin lahat ay gagawin
basta para sayo

wala lang

2005-10-02T19:05:00.001+08:00

haha. HI KA...LARO!!! musta na? haha. gwapo talaga ni papa brad!

ui! hi mau..wi!!! joke lang. undo undo... hi mau!!! napadaan ka?! weh! haha. hey! musta na si....? haha. wala lang.

haay! grabe after that busy weekend, ang antuking ko na! grabe...yesterday.. paguwi ko natulog ako that was aroun 10:?? in the morning.. tapos i woke up around 6 pm. then i studied then around 11 i felt sleepy and natulugan ko yung katext ko. hehe. naawa ako sa kaniya bigla... kasi wala nang nagawa after nun. nagpakasenti nalang sa kwarto niya! haha. tindi!

grabe! wala lang! oh! itutuloy ko na istorya ko na biten sa inyo!

san nako? ayun nga.. so sobrang saya ko ngayon dahil sa kaniya! yeah! haha. sarap ng feelong! parang your looking forward every single day just to see that person... except weekends! haha. kasi di naman kame nagkikita pagweekend except kung may mga plans. haha. kahit na were just in the same..... ang hirap parin! haha. ayun!

commercial: ang daya ng ka...laro ko... may MCDO siya! GUSTO KO RIN NG MCDO! (hala!naingit!)

ayun! haay... grabe! im so happy! as in sobra! haha. hay salamat at lunes na bukas! magkikita na ulit kame! ay! exam week na! damn it! son of a..... ! hehe. may balak akong ....

sige na... ibibiten ko nanaman kayo! hanggang dito na muna! haaay.. i love doing this... i mean yung nagbibiten! haha.

ingat kayo! hello sa nagbabasa! aral na kayo! exams na! weh. parang ginagawa ko yun! haha. sige. bye.until next time!

long time na ah!

2005-10-01T00:30:00.000+08:00

before anything else i would just like to greet my "KA...LARO"
haha. sawakas nakapagblog narin kahit pano! namiss ko na ang paggaganito! weh. haha.

magingles nga tayo... weh. gusto pa!

oh game!

okey. now lets see... what should i talk about now? what do you want to know? huh? what? haha. just kidding!

hey! $ if you are reading this... dude! your AR form! get a medical certif. man! haha.

okey. enough buls***! lets get down to serious business... (business daw!)

hhhmmm... what can i say? lets talk about.... hhhhmm... ah! the never ending story of my love life...

haha. i was going to leave this behind until... i saw her... (wanna know who? lets play a game shall we? GUESSING GAME!) haha. so... there... i saw her... she saw me... then *BOOM* it was never the same again. i went to school that day... without a care about anyone, i mean no love life... no crush... no nothing... but i left school that day... with someone in my heart! (First day na first day oh!) . the truth is... i never expected that i would fall again... into the "game" called love. (Weh.) haha. deeeep!

wait... i just noticed... OCTOBER NA!!! OKTOBER FEST!!! YEAH BOI!!!

back to the... thing i was talking about... there we go... now... the question is... why? why do i have to fall this deep? too deep. but hey! its cool! (Weh.) im okey as of the moment! love life is fine (what i mean by that is F- REAKED OUT I - NSECURE N - ERVOUS E - MOTIONAL... this was according to italian job..but im not sure if is right!) to be perfectly honest! and im seriuosly happy!!! really i am! i was just kidding with the F.I.N.E thing... hehe. and then...

okey. i think you have had enough of this love life K-rap! haha.

haay! know what! i lack sleep! i slept yesterday at 2:00 am i woke up at 5. i was suppose to sleep in the afternoon... but NOOOO! io couldnt! haha. so..until now! i am still up and giving myself a splitting headache!!! i still have to do alot of stuff... hhhmm if thats the case... why am i here? well i cant just rot duing the project in P.E (exclusive for NON swimmers only!!! haha.) damn it! im so like WASTED!!! my mind is working/functioning properly! haha. its kinda messed up! haha. i cant even walk properly... earlier at school i was walking very "magulo" its like i was walking in a zig zag direction! wooooozzzzy! haha. you know what! im.......

okey! break is over! im gonna go and do my thing! but im not gonna sleep yet! maybe later! when i get home! haha.

okey! this would semi-end here... to be continued... (haha. nangbiten pa talaga eh!)

as i would say to my "KA...LARO" : Ako pa!
and my "KA...LARO" would say: Ikaw pa!

haha.

to be continued... i want to leave you guys hanging... haha.

alright! later! chill! i'll be back!

2005-09-24T10:50:00.000+08:00

Muling lalapit
Ang liwanag sa paligid
At ang tinig
Na sa akin nagsasabing
Hindi mapipigil ng mundo
Papatunaan ang pangako

Dahil kailangan ka
Kailangang pakita natin tayo'y iba
At kahit pa
Hindi papapigil sa mundo
At sa umagang darating
Lahat ay aking kakayanin
At kahit pa ikaw lang at ako

Huwag mong iisipin
Ang mga harang sa atin
At ang ihip ng hangin ay darating
Bigla lang titigil ang mundo
At ang lahat ay maglalaho
Hindi ko man hawak ang panahon
Maging ang ikot ng buhay
Basta't ikaw at ikaw pa rin
Ikaw at ikaw pa rin

cloud 09!!!!

2005-08-23T09:08:00.000+08:00

wala lang... tagal ko ng hindi nakakaupdate ng mahiwaga kong blog. hehe. aun. hai.. ay nako. boring. nasa multimedia lang ako na aming eskuwelahan at nasa computer lab (1) un crux ko! ng nghhtml xa. pero indi ko xa nakita. bsta lam ko computer nila ngaun. hahaha. wla lang. hai... accidentally in love?? mukang hindi! at first sight... ng skul year... hehehe. oh well thats life... this is love... pinapa2g2g ko ngaun un tell me where it hurts naaala2 ko 2loy xa... grabe sarap parinig saknea oh! grabe... ang bilis ng heartbeat ko ngaun... ewan ko ba. bkt kaya ganun ang nara2mdman ko pag nari2nig ko tong kantang toh? wel... cguro kc kanta daw niya toh skin... nung sunday tnanung niya kng anu daw gs2 kng bday gift? sabe ko nung una hindi ko alam... cd ba daw? ewan ko... tpos after nun a few... mins. cnabe ko saknea... lam ko na anf PERFECT bday gift mo sakin... tanung nea anoh? sabe ko... "love all of the hurt away" sabe nia... anoh? sabe ko... bsat anjan ka ok na ko nun. nakalimutan ko un cnabe nea eh.. bsta ang cnabe ko na nun oo. ok na ko bsta anjan ka. dba nga tell you where it hurts? dba? tpos sabe nia aaww. hehe. tell me where it hurts kim! hehe.... hahaha. YEAHBOI! tpos un tnunung nea seryoso ba tlaga ko... sabe ko yup. what more could i ask for. sbe nia... *secret* hahahaha nagbiten daw eh noh? oh un nalang muna... pagsawaan niyo nalang muna un nga lumang blog. hahaha. xenxa na!

damn right!!!!

2005-05-28T06:00:00.000+08:00

soo.. its been a while and schools comin up... i wanna stay at home and play full spectrum warrior, coz its like so addictive. And the fact that you sit all day infront of your computer not minding anybody who comes inside the room... aaww yeah! thats what im talking about! and you got nothing else to do so after you play.. go stright in front of the television (hahaha... eyes just cant get enough rest huh?) i start playing computer games at around 11 and i get food and bringit infront of the computer (yeah! i eat while playing... its just so addictive) i play untill 6 in the evening... yeah then what do i do? i walk around the house coz i can do nothing until its like 9:30... so at that time i hit the television screen while texting... i watch tv until 4:30 a.m them i sleep... then hahaha.... son of a... i wake up at around 10:30 shitty huh? lack of sleep? i dont know? whatever! who cares anyway? haha... can somebody count how many hours i sleep? hahaha... well i dont even think i sleep anymore... coz its like6 hours or so... what a life huh? what a SSDD summer this is... exclude the softball training coz its over. so... what do i do from here... i know! im gonna destroy my eyes...hahaha (shit man! what am i thinkin... i must be crazy duing that!)

sooooo..... what else do i have to say? nothng really! im in a lost for words.

tell you something:

some thoughs that me and my hommie had just discussed before i wrote this blog...

here we go... heres are talk

Girls are so malabo and they give double meaning, its like me and my hommie is having a hard time understanding things about what do they really want to say. how come they're always giving us a hard time? and you dont know if they're just really damn sweet or are they sending a message to you.. and you have to choose neither one... if you chose the "they're just really damn sweet thing" theres a posibility that thats not what they want to say, they mean the other meaning. and when you chose the " sending a message" its not what they had in mind... its like they're gonna tell you "whatever!" and its like they are gonna tell you something rejecting... it like your taking a risk, if your gonna tell them a sweet thing also, all of a sudden rejection. and if you dont do it, they're sending a message to you. its not really clear. it like if you could just ask them, what do they really want to say? or what are you trying to say? you do something its like kulang pa sa kanila tapos pag you gave it your all sobra sobra naman, tapos kung kelan your doing the right thing, wala na yung feelings niya sayo parang bale wala na yung ginawa mo. ang mahirap talaga is girls are just so plain caring, kaya you cant tell if shes caring as a friend or shes caring as a person who has feelings for you. ang masakit pa dun, pag wala ka ang feelings chaka mo malalaman na may gusto siya sayo. tapos your gonna iniisip mong mga moves nung may gusto ka pa sa kanyawiniwish mo na sana ginawa mo. tapos pag nakahanap ka na ng iba, ganun ulit ang problema mo... paulit ulit nanaman sa utak mo na "baka ireject nanaman niya ko... blah blah blah" hindi na natapos ang pahihirap mo about sa love life mo. parang ang hirap talaga, kasi hindi mo maget kasi parang sinusubsob ka na sa floor tapos parang na fed up ka na, bigla siyang susulpot at sinasabeng namimiss na niya yung kakulitan mo blah blah blah... which would piss you off kasi parang sati you were always there for her and shes just rejecting you, now lumalayo layo ka na siya naman ang nagrereach out sayo. mas lalaong gumugulo utak mo, kasi kung kelan over ka na chaka siya lumalapit sayo. labo eh! what do they want us to do? what do they want us to say? tapos when it come to crush naman, when somebody likes you siyepre you know na... pag sinabe mo naman na "yeah i know i know" sasabihin nila na ang yabang mo...pero pag di mo pinansin sasabhin snob ka or manhid. so siyempre di mo na lam ang gagawin mo. ang gulo eh noh! so natural ang magagawa lang namen is act a fool... neutral yun but we always get the same response (manhid, snob, yabang). kaya anu pa ba gagawin namen? kung di namen alam kung ano ang iaact infront of these people. pero kasi parang mapapaisip ka rin eh... better do it or sorry. pero kasi pag ginawa mo na pero ang response niya sayo iba... baka lumayo siya sayo. yun ang masakit, siyempre medyo pakipot sila... (we understand why they do that...) sometimes they know what you want to say... but they want it coming directly from you (just to be sure), tapos its either she rejects or she confesess.

thats about it...were gonna stop here... ehehehe...bye. yall tc now. peace out!

why is it so complicated?

2005-05-19T17:39:00.000+08:00

why? why? why do we have to get hurt when we fall in love? when no one is really stupid, its only the things they do.What if someone come to you telling you that, that person doesn't want to fall in love again because that person doesnt want to get hurt again... but theirs a twist, the person who told you that is your crush. Now what would you do? If you have strong fellings for this person, would you tell her what you feel and hope for the best...tell that person there are alot of other fish out there. Well, in my case, i told that person... yup i did, i dont know why? i just told her... and i know what that person has been through, that person got played and hurt by four different individuals. What can i do? Im just a friend to her, we are nothing but friends. This is the end of the line. Well, i promised my self if couldnt get this person its over. That is the end! No more Love life for me! Its finished! Were still freinds, I just have to forget the feelings that i have for this person.I just have to forget everything that happend. And just remember that we are JUST friends, no more, no less. Well like the girl in the movie "How to lose a Guy in Ten days" said: "You cant lose comething You never had". So I dont lose anything coz I never even had this person. You know its really so stupid, to think of the things you did just for this person. Its kinda funny really, when you think of it. In the end youll just tell your self "How could I be so stupid?" Its just the same shit that happends to each and everyone of us that cant really get the person they really love. And in the end that person will find the someone that would really give the love that the others never gave. That person would complete that others day. But why am i talking about this. Why? Why do I keep tormenting myself to someone I can NEVER have. So I cant continue anymore maybe next time... Im kinda in a mood where I dont knw what to do anymore. So This is it for now... Until the next blog. Bye.
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screw you!!!

2005-05-05T02:45:00.000+08:00

haaay... nako! galet sakin crush ko... kc daw ng*toot* ako...watever kme ba? prang galet na galet ang mga text ahhhh! langhiya nman tong buhay ba toh! like i always tel mah homie... *ehem ehem... "girls are so malabo". di mo maintindihan kung talgang sweet o iba na ibig sabihn ng pagiging sweet niya sayo. tapos mamaya iba na yung ugale...labo talga minsan yung iba pakipot pa! kunware: MU na cla tpos ayaw pa sagutin ng girl..LABO!!! jeezzz, i just dont get dem...gulo grabe! wassup wid dem? parang ang bad trip lang... tapos pag ng promise ka kelangan matupad mo kundi magaglet sayo...wat bout me? in my case damt it! FRIENDS na mga lang tingin nea sakin tapos gagalit xa kc my hindi ako nagawa! wat da hell! tapos ngsosori na nga sasabhinlang sau "hmp! ewan ko sayo...blah blah blah" and before that she compared me with her X...sabe niya pra daw ako un X nea pag mtagal na siylang di nguusap/ttxtan ganito daw mgtxt "pssst! msta na?" parang mdjo lng ganun rin un txt q skanea...tpos nkakailang kasi tama ba nmang i-compare ka sa X. damn it! tama ba nman un? edi parang nakakawalang gana! langhiya naman oh! kaya nga dinaan ko na lang sa SCREW DRIVER!!! naka 3 baso ako nun...mdjo wwooozzy na nga nung tumayo ako eh..tapos naging hyper ako pero maayos pa pagiisip ko nun...mdjo my AMAT na ata ako nun...bute nlang nugnlimabas kme dun sa place wla ng tao sa labas as inun mall madilim na...ung mga tao nalang tlaga dun sa place na ininuman nmen un tlagang my tao... tpos ung mga stores sarado na! haha. tapos cnabe ko lng sa crux q nagalet na! anu byan! galet na galet xa di nman kame! aun oh! ganun! galet xa dhil ngscrew driver ako pero iung oag2ring nea sakin ng galet xa parang kame! oh! u see? ang gulo noh? i really have nothing more to say but this is one thing i just wan to tell *toot* "you dont realize the pain im goin through"...dats all for now im really really really wasted na! ive got to go i still have training later... damn it! bye!

why?

2005-04-30T18:02:00.000+08:00

haaayy..and boring dito sa bahay walang magawa...im not even happy..walang magandang mapanuod sa tv...wrestling? napanuod ko na eh...panget kasi pagreplay...lam mo na kung ano ang mangyayari...kaya nagblog nalang ako...siguro naman di siya nagbabasa ng blog ko...hahaha...im gonna pour my wasted heart out for her...sshhhh! quiet nalang kayo ah! hehe...

If I could just find a way to get inside your heart, I would be the luckiest guy.
If I could just be the one who'd be by your side, just a chance to feel what its like.
And I'd do anything to be in his shoe, coz I know I could give even more

Baby this love is all that I've got, more than diamonds and pearls and all the waelth in this world.
Baby this love it is all that I've got but I know its gonna last forever

Standing outside your world, wishing you let me in and I'd show you what my love can bring
Helplessly hoping can we could have a chance, coz I know Im just one step away
And Im living a dream that i wish would come true, waiting for a happy ending

Baby this love is all that I've got, more than diamonds and pearls and all the waelth in this world.
Baby this love it is all that I've got but I know its gonna last forever

I may not have too much to give, but how can you stop a feeling so stong?
All I ever want to be, is right by your side

Baby this love is all that I've got, more than diamonds and pearls and all the waelth in this world.
Baby this love it is all that I've got but I know its gonna last forever

Baby this love...
Baby this love it is all that I've got but I know its gonna last forever...ohh..and ever

Haaayy...grabeh! ang hirap kasi eh...ayaw na daw niya magmahal ulit...magbabagong buhay na daw siya..."she shut me down".

Come breathe me I'm taking you up, lifting you a higher
Come see me I'll show you the way where no one will leave
Come live me I'll get you right thru, believe it, it's me and you
Come breathe me

I know its hard walking all alone Down this long and bumpy road
With no one to cry on No one to lean your head upon
But, baby, look harder now 'Cause somewhere in the dark
I'm here to light a sparktsk tsk tsk ah whoo!

Come breathe me I'm taking you up, lifting you a higher
Come see me I'll show you the way where no one will leave
Come live me I'll get you right thru, believe it, it's me and you
Come breathe me

It's painful, I know Living life with all it's hurts and troubles
I'm on your side Pushing away your tears and sorrows
But you've gotta hang on Together we'll carry on
You gotta get up and walk ontsk tsk tsk ah whoo!

Come breathe me I'm taking you up, lifting you a higher
Come see me I'll show you the way where no one will leave
Come live me I'll get you right thru, believe it, it's me and you
Come breathe me

But half way to go your way To keep you away from your road
But you gotta be strong my friend Don't waiver, keep hanging on
'Cause you'll make it thru the night You gotta run the race, gotta win the fight

I'm gonna be there for you always Gonna be there for you my baby
The moment I saw you girl, you gotta be strong Gotta be strong, hang on
You're not too strong for me But if you were with me, you will see
Open up your heart, why don't you come with me, baby

Come breathe me I'm taking you up, lifting you a higher
Come see me I'll show you the way where no one will leave
Come live me I'll get you right thru, believe it, it's me and you
Come breathe me

Come breathe me
Come see me
Come live me
Come breathe me

I'm like so feeling senti today...siympre..as of the moment, Im thinking of her...oh yeah! Wishing for something

Sick and Tired of seeing couples play, Holding hands in the sun all day.
I love the way that he calls her name, I feel the love thats flowing through their vains.
Never thought I'd miss love this way, till i woke up with a broken heart today singin..
Can I get your love back again? Im goin crazy from being your friend (girl Im lonely)

I dont want to be alone no more
I need someone to call my own
If theres someone who cares about me
Someone fullfil my needs

I dont want to be alone no more
I need someone to call my own
If theres someone who cares about me
Someone fullfil my needs

I had a good dream that you came back to me, I didn't want to wake to face reality
But I woke up early, longing for you I hugged my pillow tight thinking that it you
The pain inside it hurt so bad, I just laid there as time went pass singin
Can I get your love back again? Im goin crazy from being your friend (girl Im lonely)

I dont want to be alone no more
I need someone to call my own
If theres someone who cares about me
Someone fullfil my needs

I dont wanna be lonely, And I need someone for me...
Show to me lonely, I just need one for me...

I dont want to be alone no more
I need someone to call my own
If theres someone who cares about me
Someone fullfil my needs

I dont want to be alone no more
I need someone to call my own
If theres someone who cares about me
Someone fullfil my needs

I dont want to be alone no more
I need someone to call my own
If theres someone who cares about me
Someone fullfil my needs

Ang sakit kaya...wala na talagang pag-asa kahit isang decimal point. Ang nais mo ay kaibigan lang ako...Ba't di mo pagbigyan...haaay...when she says im just a friend...wala na talaga...what else can i do? lage nalang kasi ganito ang ending eh...ano kaya tigil muna ako sa love life? yun hindi muna ngayon...parang break muna tayo sa love life...hhhmmm let me think....NAAHH! i know im crazy but that shit is too much...di pwede yan..di ata ako nabubuhay ng walang love life (NYAK!!! whatever) haha

I've been hopeless Waiting here in my door
From the top of my head Down to this narrow floor

I've been so awake I've been so afraid
To know... To know...

Tell me what to do, I don't know why I'm hopeless In this show
Tell me it doesn't hurt, If I'll find out That I'm alone

Coz I've been waiting for so long
Do I need to wait here or go
Wait or go... Wait or go...

ewan ko lang kung complete yung lyrics...hahaha..."I wanna give you love, wanna show you everything that my hearts made of heaven scent from above. I wanna make your wish come true, baby anything that I would do I'd do for you. so I give to you all my love". haaay nako senti na senti talaga ako ngayon...ayayay

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define what’s within
And I been there before but that life’s a bore, so full of the superficial

Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby, if I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I ain't got you, yeah

Some people search for a fountain
The promise is forever young
(You know) Some people need three dozen roses
And that’s the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be With no-one to share with, no-one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby, if I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I ain't got you, yeah

Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby, if I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I ain't got you, yeah

If I ain't got you with me baby, ohh, ooo
Say nothing in this whole wide world don’t mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby
If I ain't got you with me baby

haay...pasensiya na ah! puro kanta lang ang nasa utak ko ngayon eh..hehehe...kasi feeling senti ako ngayon...okei cge hangang dito nalang muna...sinusumpong na ako eh...kakain na ko! chaka magrereminice sa kwarto ko...habang nagpapatuntog ng senti na kanta...byan!oi wag niyo kalimutan kumain ng ice cream...mainit eh..o kaya ng halo - halo...wag na kayo nag kape sa starbucks/seattles best/gloria jeans ahh..init init nagkakape kayo...mag frappe nalang kayo..heheh..."HOTTAH HOTTAH!" punta nalang kayo sa beach o kaya sa mga swimming pool niyo diyan kung ayaw niyo umitim wag kalimutan maglagay ng sun block o kaya sa gabe nalang kayo magswimming para pagnalunod kayo walang magrerescue sa inyo kasi gabe na at mga nakainum/pago/tulog na and mga kasama mo...mga pare tagay lang sa mga ice cold san migs/red horse/colt 45/beer na beer/lambanog/vodka/mudshake at mga gin/brandy/scotch/etc. niyo basta tandaan "DRINKING AND DRIVING DON'T MIX" diyan wag kalimutan ilagay sa cooler kahit wag na kayo magyosi basta may malmig na inumin diyan sa cooler niyo ok na...hahaha wag kalimutan ang pulutan...yung mga iba na hindi tumtagay ng alchohols imun nalang kayo ng ice cold coke/sprite/royal/sarsi/pepsi/mirinda/gatorade (nyak! bat nasali yan!)/etc. pero and importante wag kalimutan and tubig absolut/wilkins/viva/etc. yung malamig dapat! kugn wala kang magawa sa bahy katulad ko at may pera ka at pwede ka pumunta kung saan saan pumunta ka nalang ng mall maly mo? baka makakita ka pa ng chicks dun...tapos pag trip mo uminum...mag gasolina alley kayo..o kaya punta nalang sa nga clubs around town..wahaha! and mag dance "ERBODY IN DA CLUB GET TIPSY" at ng "YEAH"...at pag ipinag kwento ka ng iba mong kaibigan kung ano ang nangyare dun sa club at my nakilala kang magandang chick ganito ang saabihin mo...

Up in the club with my homies, tryna get a lil' V-I, but keep it down on the low key, 'cause you know how it is.
I saw shorty she was checkin' up on me, from the game she was spittin' in my ear you would think that she knew me. So we decided to chill

Conversation got heavy, she had me feelin' like she's ready to blow!
(Watch Out! Oh! Watch Out!)
She's saying "Come get me! Come get me",So I got up and followed her to the floor,
she said "Baby, let's go",That's when I told her I said

Yeah (yeah) Shorty got down low and said come and get me
Yeah (yeah) I got so caught up I forgot she told me
Yeah (yeah) Her and my girl used to be the best of homies
Yeah (yeah) Next thing I knew she was all up on me screaming:

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah! Yeah, Yeah! Yeaah!
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah! Yeah, Yeah! Yeaah!

So she's all up in my head now, got me thinking that it might good idea to take her with me,
'Cause she's ready to leave (ready to leave)
But I gotta keep it real now, 'cause on a one to ten she's a certified twenty, but that just ain't me. Hey.

Because I don't know if I take that chance just where it's gonna lead,
But what I do know is the way she dance makes shorty alright with me.
The way she (get low!)
I'm like yeah, just work that out for me.
She asked for one more dance and I'm
Like yeah, how the hell am I supposed to leave?
nd I said

Yeah (yeah) Shorty got down low and said come and get me
Yeah (yeah) I got so caught up I forgot she told me
Yeah (yeah) Her and my girl used to be the best of homies
Yeah (yeah) Next thing I knew she was all up on me screaming:

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah! Yeah, Yeah! Yeaah!
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah! Yeah, Yeah! Yeaah!

My outfit's ridiculous, in the club lookin' so conspicuous.And
Rowl! These women all on the prowl, if you hold the head steady I'm a milk the cow.
Forget about the game, I'm a spit the truth, I won't stop till I get 'em in they birthday suits.
So gimmie the rhythm and it'll be off with their clothes, then bend over to the front and touch your toes.
I left the jag and I took the roles, if they aint cutting then I put em on foot patrol.
How you like me now, when my pinky's valued over three hundred thousand,
Lets drank you the one to please, Ludacris fill cups like double D's.
Me and Ursh once more and we leave 'em dead, we want a lady in the street but a freak in the bed to say

Yeah (yeah) Shorty got down low and said come and get me
Yeah (yeah) I got so caught up I forgot she told me
Yeah (yeah) Her and my girl used to be the best of homies
Yeah (yeah) Next thing I knew she was all up on me screaming:

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah! Yeah, Yeah! Yeaah!
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah! Yeah, Yeah! Yeaah!

Take that and rewind it back, Lil' Jon got the beat to make ya booty go (clap)
Take that and rewind it back, Ursher got the voice to make ya booty go (clap)
Take that and rewind it back, Ludacris got the flow to make ya booty go (clap)
Take that and rewind it back, Lil' Jon got the beat to make ya booty go (clap)

hahaha...pewro wag mo gagawin yan lalo na pag di ka na single..hehehe tapos pag may gusto kang girl dunsa club mag request ka sa DJ na ipatugtug ang "PEACHES AND CREAM" tapos sabhin mo sa girl para sayo itong kantang ito

So hot, hot
It's the S the L the I the M
Let me tell you what I wanna do
Let me show you that I'm feelin' you
Wanna sex, wanna ride with you
Wanna taste, wanna put my lips all over you
Can't get enough of you Always taken of you
So sweet, so very wet
So good, girl you make me sweat
Girl I'm talkin' 'bout

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean, peaches and cream

I never thought that I would be
So addicted to you
On top, underneath, on the side of you
Better yet baby inside of you
Love the way you're just flowin down
And I can feel it all around
In the front, in the back of you
Ooh I love the taste of you
Girl you know what I'm talking about

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean

Won't stop girl you know I can't get enough
Wanna taste it in the morning when I'm waking up
Like peach cobbler in my stomach when I eat it up
Got your legs around my neck so I can't get up
See the boys 112 we from the A'
(A' - shorty we don't play)
And when it comes to eating peaches, shorty we don't play
So all the ladies in the house if your peach the shit
Put your hands in the air represent your clique

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean

Oh girl I need it
I gotta have it
It's always on my mind
Know what I mean
Peaches and cream
I like it in my car
Or even in my bed
Or baby on the stairs
Know what I mean
Peaches and cream

...tapos sumayaw ka kasama siya...hahaha tapos tell her "Won't you come on and go with me Come on ova to my place Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat And let me ease ya mind girl We gon do it our way" hahaha get what i mean...hehehe magBBUMP BUMP BUMP na kayo nung girl na yun...hahaha ghetting green na guys so i gotta chill now...hahah enjoy nalang kayo! cge na..ive got to split! tc! have a nice day! peace out!

2005-04-18T10:34:00.000+08:00

owkei...hav u herd...wla ng tres, sa buhay q...ooooohhhh! its through...d q na xa crux...no more... ayt? yan tpos na paghi2rp...joke lng...

but! i have a new crux...well old na new...dati pa toh eh...mdjo d q nlang pnancin, tpos bumalik...ooohhh! yeah! un but f curse...d identity remains a secret!

hai...heres a little sumthin sumthin....

dis gal...wel she knws wut i feel... yeah she jst dnt feel d same way...still coudnt get over wut happend to her a few mnths ago... and she told me, she doesnt wna luv agen...and she promsed her frends dat person is d last one... (aaaawwwwch!) so i cnt do anythng... dts herrr dcision...i just have to live wid it... d na nga aq umaasa eh...coz i know rite from d start... cant have her... no chance in hell...ive got. damn it!

*baby you should let me love you, let me be the one to give you everything you want and need. baby, good love and protection make me your selection show you the way loves suppose to be

*if i could just fine a way to get inside your heart i would be the luckies guy. if i could just be the one who'd be by your side just a chance to feel what its like. and id do anything to be in his shoes coz i know i culd give even more. baby this love is all that ive got, more than diamonds and pearls and all the wealth in this world. baby this love it is all that ive got...

*i deserve a try honey just once give me a chance and ill prove its all wrong...ill never break your heart ill never make you cry id rather die than live without you ill give you all of me honey thats mo lie

*some people want it all but i dont want nothing at all if it aint you baby if i anit got you baby. some people want diamond rings some just want everything but everything means mothing if i aint got you

*why dont you and i get together take on the world and be together forever heads we will and tails we'll try again and im singin why dont you and i hold each other fly to the moon and straight on to heaven coz without you theyre never gonna let me in...slowly i begin to realize this is never gonna end and at the same time you walked by and i said "oh here we go again"

*Before anything came between us You were like my bestfriend The one I used to run to when me and my girl was having problems (thats right) You used to say it would be okay suggest little nice things I should do And when I come home at night and lay my head down all I seem to think about is you...What's sad is I love her but I'm falling for you What should I do...Should I Do exactly what I feel inside Cause I, I don't wanna go Don't need to stay But I really need to get it together...At this point The situation's out of control...I tried, I tried to fight it but the feelings just to strong

*It's the simple things in life we forget You hear her talkin' but don't hear what she said Why do you make something so easy so complicated Searching for what's right in front of your face But you can't see it

*Without you my whole world is falling apart And I'm going crazy! Lifes a prison when your in love alone...(Please stay don't go) To give me another chance I want to be your man Girl, you got me down here on my knees Crying, begging pleading I'll do anything for your love Would you help me? Tell me what you want from me Can u help me? I don't understand Girl I just a man Help me Can help me With out you my whole world is falling apart And without you girl I'm going crazy! Life a prison without your love

hai....nako buhay

cge un nlang muna...tc...bye...

Caught up!

2005-03-21T14:23:00.000+08:00

tryin to move on...but no...bumabalik...ayaw gmalw eh...todo na toh! Grabeh ah! Lakas ng tama nea! isang araw sa cantin ng GS...dun kme ni besprend...dun rin c tres…ol I did was just laugh nd smile (nyak! dinaan sa tawa!) after nun mdjo mgbbell na...selos? (bkt?) we just left...dats lyp, la taung maga2wa. Ive got to live with it...
peo ngaun, der no point in laughing kc nabbcit na q d2 sa bahay...ang BORING TO DA MAX!!!! d bale after this wik, d na boring kc my training na q 4 softball kea nka2alis na q from dis f*ckin hell house...damn it! Pnta kea q ng grad nla, ui masaya un...IN MY DREAMS! tpos na eh...hahaha

caught up na tlaga q

Im the kind of brotha
Who been doin it my way
getting my way for years
in my career (*tru – tru)
and every lover
in and out my life
ive heard love and left the tears
without a care (*yup..totoo)
Until I met this girl who turned the tables around
She caught me by surpreise
I never thought id be the one breaking down
I cant figure it out why (*yup, tres un girl dun)

Im so
Caught up
Got me feeling it
Caught up
I dont know what it is
But it seems shes got me twisted
Im so
Caught up
Got me feeling it
Im losing control
This girls got a hold on me

Let me go baby
Now listen
My momma told me
Be careful who you do cuz karma comes back around
Same ol song
But I was so sure
That it wouldn’t happen to me
Cuz I know how to put it down (*un ang akala ko!)
But I was so wrong

This girl was mean (*d nman)
She really turned me out
He body was so tight
Im looking for her in the daytime with a flashlight
My hommies say this girl is crampin my style
And I cant figure it out but

Im so
Caught up
Got me feeling it
Caught up
I dont know what it is
But it seems shes got me twisted
Im so
Caught up
Got me feeling it
Caught up
Really feeling it
Caught up
I dont know what it is
But it seems shes got me twisted

Im so
Caught up
Really feeling it
Caught up
Im losin control
This girls got a hold on me

This girl was mean
She really turned me out
Yeah yeah yeah suga
My hommies say this gils crampin my style
Im so
Caught up
Caught up
Dont know what it is
Bit it seems shes got me twisted
Im so
Caught up
Im losim control
This girl got a hold
Im so
Caught up
I dont know what it is
But it seems shes got me twisted
Im so
Caught up
Really feelin it
Caught up
Im losin control
This girls got a hold on me

Hai grabeh tlga...lakas ng tama *whapakk! prang san mig strong ice...na my ksamang red horse *ito and tama! (nax wats wid da song on da radjo “sorry 2004” knta q sa knea dati nung ngalet xa) teka knta rin ni bespren ky *toot dati ngalet sknea eh crux nea...(awww)...Haii...I ddnt mean to fall sooooo deep, as in deep like 6 ft. under deep or 20 leagues under the sea deep...todo na ito!

I dont know how I dont know why, but girl it seems youve touched my life.
Your in my dreams, your in my heart Im not myself when were apart.
Something strange has come over me a raging wind across my seas, and girl you know that your eyes are to blame.
And WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO IF I CANT GET OVER YOU, IVE COME TO FIND THAT YOU DON’T FEEL THE SAME

Coz im fallin, girl im fallin for you. And I pray your fallin too. Ive been fallin, fallin. Ever since the moment I laid eye on you.

I lose my step, I lose my ground, im not myself when your around. Im holdin on for my life, to keep from drowning in your eyes. Girl what have you done to me, to make me fall so desperately to think that I dont even know your name no, (*no! mali yan!) no and how am I supposed to live, if I cant get over this. You decide that you dont feel the same.

Coz im fallin, girl im fallin for you. And I pray your fallin too. Ive been fallin, fallin. Ever since the moment I laid eye on you.

Will you stay or will you go?
Heaven knows what my future holds.
Questions linger on my mind,
From day break to dark of night.
I dont know whats come over me

Cant you see…girl im fallin, fallin
Girl im fallin, for you…Im fallin, fallin ever since the moment I laid eyes on you.

Okei? Felin senti todae...cge magpaka senti tau...2tal no moe skul eh...d q nrin xa maki2ta, mst probably nxt yir na ulit

*I wish you look at me that way your beautiful eyes look in deep into mine, telling me more than any words could say. But you dont even know im alive, coz baby to you all I am, is the invisible man.

*Cant get you out of my system, out of my head, out of my future, out of my bed. I hear your name, I see your face, I lose all composure. I need to see you one more time I need closure.

*I wanna give you all my love, I wanna show you everything that my hearts made off. Heaven sent from above. I wanna make your wish come true, baby there is anything ill do, ill do for you. So I give to you all my love.

*just a chance to feel what its like to be in his shoes...standing outside your world, wish you let me in. and Id show you what my love can bring helplessly hoping. Can we have a chance...I wish could come true waiting for a happy ending...I may not have much to give but how can you stop a feeling so strong? All I ever want to be is right by your side...it is love it is all that ive got

*I don’t wanna be lonely no more

ei I tried:
Taking my time
trying to leave the memories of you behind
im gonna be fine
as soon as I get your picture right out off my mind.

But nooo...it not working shes still there...(haha gnda ng song ah…”senorita”)

*well I don’t mean to do it but theres no escaping your love
(oh my gash...)

*I don’t want another pretty face I don’t want just anyone to hold. I don’t want my love to go to waste

summer na! Miss q na xa! (nyak! as if kame!..in my dreams) whens this feeling gonna end, mlapet na kya? Pg ntapos and summer na xa parin tlaga...sobra na toh!

*im hopeless, helpless when it comes to you

evrytime I try to change my mind, bumablik s knea. I know its not meant to be, pero bkt ganun?
*I am crazy, im too crazy just everything about you, about you

d nman dpat...bkt b d aq mkamuve on...kht 2mingin sa iba...khit nga ky “temptation” eh...wla, nkatingin lng...nothing spexal...im lusin my appetite agen (ayan nnman po tau, wla nnman gana chumubug) fasting ba itoh? Mdjo inaaraw – araw. Lm q nsa bokabularyo q ang maging matakaw... my bago na! Walang gana kumain...aiii buhay...idol q na c CONSTANTINE! Idol q na...hehehe (shhh...quiet lng kau...)

ui...cnu my alam ng RIZAL HIGH...sa PASIG? D q lam kng san un, tag kau pg lam neo r contact me A.S.A.P, kng san ang RIZAL HIGH...hehehe

cge na, nuod nlang aq ng DVD/VCD/TV...mgbbad aq sa hrap ng telebisyon...(oh...CAUGHT UP sa radjo) mgpa2ka addik nlang aq sa panu2od...lagyan ntin ng “ONTING” (onti...yeah right) PS/PS2 at PC GAMES...at “SOBRANG ONTI” sa pg labas...(yeah, onti daw...halos araw araw wla sa bhay...whatever)

wer to find me:
*bhay ni besprend, *MP, *7-11, *shang, *mega, * galle, *softball training, *bhay ng pinsan q, pg wla djan...ng outing...(mst probably sa batangas)...

NYAK! As if ur gna luk 4 me...(hangin ah...)

Ui nsakin na fone q...txt neo q hehe...sobra na ang nobela q...HAPPY VACAXON! Sa mga nggraduate, CONGRATS! Sa inyo... okei, TC...hav a SMOKIN’ dae...peace out! Bye! =)

she rocks my world but when will she rule it?

2005-03-03T18:32:00.000+08:00

she rocks my world but when will she rule it?
100% true...nhiya lng aqng sbhin sa knea kc
*everytime i try to talk to you i get togue tie turns out everything i say to youcomes out wrong and never comes out right.

hai... xa na tlga eh...

*ikaw nga ang siyang hanap hanap kay tagal na ako'y nangarap LUMULUHOD NAKIKIUSAP ako ay mahalin mo sinta. ikaw nga ang siyang magbabago sa akin, sa aking buhay handang iwanan lahat para lang sayo.

wla lng aqng mxadong masabe ngaung pnahong ito...puro kanta lng nsa icip q

*maybe its wrong to say please love me to coz i know you'll never do, somebody else is waiting there inside for you. maybe its wrong to love you more each day coz i know he's here to stay, but my love is strong i dont know if this is wrong but i know to whom yo should belong.

onti lng msa2be q sa knea... kaya q maghintay, kahit gano katagal... kc sobrang mahal kita "tres"...SOBRA!!! sobra sobra na

*you can call me selfish but all i want is your love, you can call me hopless baby because im hopelessly in love. you can call me unperfect but who's perfect tell me what do ive got to do to prove that im the only one for you...so whats wrong with being selfish.

hai, as in puro kanta lng nasaicip q...

*so confused my hearts bruised, was i ever loved by you? out of reach so far i never had your heart, out of reach couldn't see we were never meant to be so. so much hurt so much pain takes awhile to regain what is lost inside...

*my sun doesn't shinew without you.

*im twisted coz one side of me is telling me that i need to move on but on the other side i wanna breakdown and cry.

*i found a reason for me to change who i used to be a reason to start over new and the reason is you.

*im here wihtout you baby, but your stil on my lonely mind i think about you baby and i dream about you all the time. im here withoput you baby, but your still with me in my dreams and tonight girl its only you and me.

*i dont mind spending everyday out of your corner in the pouring rain.

*never in my life have i been more sure, so come on up to me and close the door nobody's made me feel this way before your everything i wanted and more.

*there may not be another wat to your heart, so i guess i better find a new way in. i shiver wehen i hear your name think about you but its not the same wont be satisfie til im under your skin.

*i dont wanna dream if my dream is without you, i dont wanna sleep if my dreams will only be blue.

*that maybe all i need in darkness she is all i see come and rest your bones with me driving slow on sunday morning and i never want to leave.

*ill be true ill be useful ill be cavelier ill be yours my dear and i belong to you if you'll just let me through this is easy as lovers go sos dont complicate it by hesistating and this is wonderful as lovong goes this is tailor made whats the sense in waiting?

*im crazy for you touch me once and you'll know its true i never wanted anyone like this its all brand you, you feel it in my kiss im crazy for you.

*cause im broken when im open and i dont feel like im strong enought cause im broken when im lonesome and i dont feel light when your gone away.

*habang tumatagal lumalala laging nagwawala tumitindi umiiinit sumasalit ang dibdib...

*ngunit di nagkatotoo may iba kang nakita.

*ang puso'y naghihintal alang alang sayo.

*umasa kang maghihintay ako...

*how do you heal a broken heart, that feels like it will never beat this much again i just cant let go. How do you heal a broken heart that feel like it will never love this much again, tonight ill hold what could be right tomorrow.

*ill listen to my heart this time so i lay it on the line, i know that what ive found is once in a lifetime. and i know theres no way oput coz its once in a lifetime.

*someone who feels for me whos constantly in love with me and cares for me someone who wont say goodbye, someone who can change my life i hope its you...how will i know if your gonna be here tomorrow tell me baby how can i say when there's no other way but to give you my heart my love and trust you from the start baby dont break my heart.

*kundi rin lang ikaw ayoko nang pumorma, para ano pa mabigo muli wala nang halaga ang buhay ko sa mundo.

i rily love her..naiyak na nga aq eh... pero i hab to fight da tirs, khit na my mhal xang iba...mhal q prin xa...

*you should let me love you.

*kahit ma mawala ka pa, andito lang ako naghihintay parin sayo.

*some people want it all but i dont want nothing at all, if it aint you baby if i aint got you baby. some people want diamond rings some just want everything and everything means nothing if i aint got you.

well, i rili cnt do anything tres loves another person..i cnt change da way she fils for dat person...sna she wud ba happy nlang...bsta dito parin aq...khit na kaibigan nlng ok na! kaibigan na mhal xa ng sobra...kaya q pa nman mghintay eh..kaya p nman ng sawi qng puso..kaya png mhintay..tlagang mghi2ntay aq..mtagal pa bgo bumigay at forever ng close doors... sa ngaun, tlagang mgchachaga aq sa pghi2ntay. para lng sknea... d q nman msabe khit knino, kc rite now ders no khit cno around...sabe saqn mgmove on na daw aq...mhirap eh..binigay q hat lhat s knea..chaka pg ngmove on naq..wla ng kasunoafter ni tres. and hirap ng buhay, life's a joke...nwa2lan na nga aq ng gana kumain at gumawa ng mga bagay bagay ulit..2log? lagi nman aq gnyan eh..pagcing gcng..iisa lng nsa utak...TRES!!!...skneana na tlaga umiiikot ano lhat eh...kso wla qng mga2wa...mhal nea eh..mahl rin xa..mhal nla isa't isa...oo nung una pa lng pnagsabhin na q 2ngkol sa pgka2ron ng crux ky tres (dati un nung crux q plang xa)... pewo d aq nakinig cnabe q lng dun sa ngsabe "ok lng bsta xa d nsa2ktan, khit aq nlang wg lng xa"...yup ngyari nga...d xa nsa2ktan...aq? ok lng? oo..kng anu cnabe q un na un... xempre martir eh..at mhal na mhal c tres! ng sobra sobra...sna d xa saktan nung taong un...

pag-asa? oo mrami aq nan umaasa q na kya qng mghintay pra lng s knea...lam q msama pero...d q ga2win un kng tlagang mahl q xa.. sna naintindhan neo..og pxenxahan neo na q...mhirap q...mhirsp eh..peo kakayanin.. khit ano pa sbhin nila...mahl q tlaga c tres! wla ng mgba2go dun..cge until here nlang..bye tc... : l

weekend...

2005-02-27T15:36:00.000+08:00

nung fridae ngusap kme ni bespren...bout ligaw at having a *uknwat* den i duno, bnabsa ata nea un mga messages q or message ata ni tres na super dati pa...
sabe nea: musta nman kau ni "tres"?
sabe q: ewan...ah, hindi.. ok lang kame... ok lang kmea
sabe nea: gud, kau ba?
sabe q: uh... indi, bkt gusto mo kme? gusto q nga ligawan eh...peo mahirap na kc gr.7 xa...(iniicp q to MYSELF na pano lng aftr nlng ng grad nla chaka nea q sagutin...hhhmmm... nd den..)
sabe nea: bkt d mo nlang ligawan tps aftr nlgn ng grad nla chaka ka nea sagutin
sabe q: (wat d f...) um... pede nrin.. tama, tama aftr nlang ng grad nla...gud idea (like i was thnkng f dat... tuk d words right out of my mouth)
yan ang aming shrt conrsaxon involvng tres... filin q meon ng iba (hello as if i own her, dba?) dats fine wid me... hahah il jsu try my luck khit na meon o wla yan.. hahaha.. malay mo wla d masaya pa q , at list pg ganun i cn show her hwmuch i rilly luv her dba? (nax) panu pg meon.. well i cnt du anything, d q nman kyang palitan un nffil nea dun sa oder person na un..i jus hav 2 live wid it.. hahaha... #1 ata c tres sa listahan q na ngbbgay buhay saqn.. #2 extra joss #3 kit kat white #4 *udntwanaknw* #5 *bkamagulatkau*

nanuod kme ni bespren ng mubi... nung gr.6 paq uso na toh.. un "a walk to remember" huwala lng n3pan lng nmane den aftr nun usap ulit kme... preh rin un topic... gus2 ata nea kso...i duno...aq dis single lif is killing me... hirap, im not used to being alone u know...hai... ay nun feb 14 ala aqng gft ky tres... lack f funds kc eh... chaka my naiicip aq.. but *its all in my head* wla un... dnt wana b basto but...ay cge wag nlang bka mgalewt pa ulit saqn...nver mind...

hai...swimming...masaya nun, but to thing dat *uknwhu* is der nd might be watchin..hehe not thanks, ill just sit this one out... nhiya aq magswimming, andjan kc xa eh... peo tpos na swimming nla..so i guess its my turn to swim... uh no! in ur dreams... anu kau? over my drop dead body... ur gona havee to push me 1st den ill have to pull u nxt.. haha..ui summers commin up... trabaho tym... im getting paid dudes... maka2bli na q ng stuff at mybe i cud take tres out... haha.. yeah... but first iv got to get da hell out of being f*ckn groundd.. its f*ckn killing me... dis rily sux u knw... thnkng bout tres wud make me happy, nxt is extra joss and kit kat white.. ok na q... haha kelan b aaus tong buhay na toh? kea msarap nanaginip eh... wlang prob sa drims... mga gs2 mo nangya2ri sa drims mo na impocble na mngyari sa ril lyf.. sna umaus na toh... peo sa ngaun, d nman masama mangarap at managinip eh... wla nman bayad...hehehe

tpos nun saturdae...kausap q c janine.. tinotono nmin un gitar q tru da pone... tpos sbe ng ama q tama na! sunod nman aq, tpos my cnabe xa sa mum q tpos galet mum q saqn... (watver) tama b nmang hilahin un hed ng gitar... d nwala nnman un sa tono.. janine sorry ah.. wlang ngyari sa pgtono ntin tru da pone...
ganda grabeh! galit na q! bisyo nlng kea q... mgpaka addict sa xtra joss...at kit kat white o kea.. R.H,SML,C45,SMSI,TEQ,VKA....haha anupa?

ei.. ya know wat... gnda tlaga ni tres...4eva...2die4...grabeh! sobrang naka2baliw xa... im crazy for this girl... imm crazy for you!!!! ei... u know wat!!!!.......temptation (resist tamptation please... temptation comin over me, i can feel the vibration)... yng temptationg na yn... u cn kiss temptation gudbye... (nyak ansama)...ui...temptation has left the building...haha...leave, get out right now...wla na! im through with you...wla ng temptation comin over me, i can feel the vibration...yeah.. i like dat, i like dat.... c tres nlang tlaga...4 real... haha...cge got to go... pnta pa qng 7-11.. cge hav a nice dae... sa mga my test gud luk sa inyo... bye... tc...

let me love you...

2005-02-12T13:03:00.000+08:00

is dis hell or wat? wla aqng date...damn...ang saya noh? (not!) dis really sux, ready na q eh prob lng date...(wla!) ewan q b kng bkt yw q i-ask c tres, hya cguro aq... haiii... im n-sshy s knea, peo d man kcing shy ng isang taong kila2 q my kaon n nga nahi2ya pa sa knea... anu b un? bute nga x eh meon... tpos aq...well wat du i have??? i dunno... wla na ata aqng pg asa eh... (no no no... d dpat yn ang iniicp q... i shud b thngkin of psitive stuff...) not this... cge na nga... peo wlang mara2ting itoh kng puro icip lng ang gnagwa q... dpat gwin q... prob nga lng... nttorpe aq pg anjan xa... kainis nman eh... hari tlaga ng sablay... (kakalog out lng nea oh... b4 i cud even say "ui" xakto.... ang pg alis nea...) SABLAY nnman aq... putres...

bnabsa kea nea toh.... tres if ur reading this... pgpxenxahan mo na q kng d2 p tlga aq ng tanung
tres....read this ....kc i was jst wndering kng my date k n b 4 feb. 14/ nd i was wondering kng pede k b mging date? kung wla k png date... peo kng meon na ok lng...

yan ntanun q nrin... mla2man q nlang ang sagot...suner r later... haii.... cge alis na q pnta p qng galle... samahan q c bespren... bye... (nax ang iksi ng napost q ah... hahaha) cge... bye.. hab a nice dae...

LQ!!!!! WAG NMAN!!!!

2005-02-09T19:18:00.000+08:00

wats going on? prang damen taong my prob sa lablyp... no no no... dis cant be damn it! y is dis hapening 2 dem...(mybe ur askin wat about me?...well...i dnt knw i love dis person but i dnt knw.. if i cud make her luv mine... bka my iba na eh..cge na! tangganp q na lhat ng ito...)

so many LQ's around da place. LQ d2 LQ dun.. bkt ganun? n22lungan q cla peo bkt pgdating sa sarili q d q ma2lungan ang aking sarili... dis sux man...d q kaya 2ng pggign single.. d aq sanay...nka2ingitnga un mga taong comted at meon *toot*
through the black and blueill olweiz luv you...nun fild 3p nmen ang kinakanta ng mga clasmates q sana'y dalawa ang puso.. dati un ang hinihinge q ngaun.not anymore..stick 2 wan na tau...NO PROSPECTES, WALA NG IBANG CRUX... c tres nlng, xa nlang tlga wla ng khati...

"put your heart in my hand you'll be safe here" ang sarap sbhin ky tres ohh..

hrap na tlga aqimused to being comited notlydis...mhi2rapan tlaga q, unlike 2 pipol i knw...na ywmging commited, d na dw kc cla free... im d complit oposite f wat dey thnk...tpos dame png mga taong LQ... naka2inis 2loy... prang minsan npa2icip aq.. wat if aqunkaon nea. d na sana yn mgka2gnyan... okea...sna aq nlng un kwa2 nman kc un kaon nea lagi nlng umiiyak kung aq yan d qppbyaan na mgkagnyan kanon q eh... haiii... ui u pipol better fix ur LQ probs ah...lpetna feb 14bkags2 neo i enjoy un arw na un ksama xa...

cge na hab to go sama ng pakiramdam q...

ILOVEYOU TRES!!!!

2005-02-08T20:25:00.000+08:00

wow.. dis is so fun... lst wik fild 3p nmen...d huwala lng..namiss q xa..(awww...)...tpos grabe, mdjo lng nba2kla nrin aq.. damn it! yoko mgkagani2.. ang hirap eh.. it not like me... my mahal aq tpos mba2kla aq ng d oras.. putres nman ohh.. its not fair u know.. nd its malpet na ng feb 14 nd i cnt b like dis, bka humarap aq ky tres bakla na... no! no! no! dis cant be... lab q un at hndi q ppbyaan na mgkagani2 aq dhil lng ky "papa" lea cabadz.. (gwapo tlaga nun) haha joke lang... niwala nman kau... wahahaha :D... nu kau, my tres na q eh..

ay my news aq sa nga naka2alam...
wla ng temptation... no more!!!!! nd im proud so say dat... wla ng temptation... khit my pic nea q na d q nman lm ggwin q peo at list andun c tres.. :D c tres nlang tlaga... (ONE AND ONLY...) wla ng temptation wla ng temptation.. wuhoo... yeah! yeah! yeah!

im so hyper 2day ah.. mybe coz f d bery gud morning dat i had... wahaha... ow yeah, watta nice day u know i like went to mass bcoz utos ng reyna... inaasahan "daw" aq dun (r-i-g-h-t)

hai eto aq ngaun kumakain ng caramel puffs at umiinum ng pepsi twist, ksama c wlang iba kndi c bespren... galing kmeng 7-11 (as usual) at kchat q mga tao... wahaha.. at pinapauwi na q ng aking mga magulang.. wahaha.. naka2adik pla ang caramel puffs haha.. nun fild 3p eto lng un knikain q sa buss eh.. tpos pgkatpos q kumain 22log aq, galing nga eh 2wing m22log aq mpa2naginipan q c tres (ahhh kilig..) nyak! halatang patay na patay ky tres eh.. khit panaginip andun... (bcoz im crazy for you... dlawang beses q nyan n22g2g ng andun c tres, peo d as in hrap hrapan...) wahahah

haii.. lapet na pla feb 14...wla p qng kadate (oh my gosh) cnu kea pede? xempre c tres, ewan q kng taken na.. ill jst ask my not so close sources... (damn it!) dis lyfstyle sux pare.. d aq sanay ng wlan ka*toot* nhi2rapan aq.. tpos ibang tao hrap na hrap.. like dis wan person i knw.. un ka*toot* nea tnatakbuhan aq pg my prob cla.. tpos prang hlos g my prob cla.. umiiyak xa, tpos prang aq... sana q nlang un, kng aq cguro un d ka sna mgka2gnyan (if i was the one who is loving you the only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy and if i was by your side you'll never know one lonely night and if it was my arms you would run into ill love in these arms of mine if i was the one..) haii... kaingit cla.. der oll hapi 2geder at aq.. ewan.. ha andi2 lng takbuhan ng mga tao.. pnagta2nungan kng anu ggwin nla, 2lungan qw daw cla... muka b qng..... hahaha... well now i can say... "just here to help" but seriusly "I need a girl who's mine oh mine I need a girl in my life"

yoko na ng gani2.. its so damn lonely.. it rilly sux 2 c myself na ngse2los sa mga tao sa paligid q.. lhat cla happi wid da person dey lab.. aq well.....hapii aq okei na kme, peo ang tanung am i wid her? i dnt want to answer dat ryt knw coz i dnt know d answer eh..

wel jst know in da nir future...
fill q lng lagay toh

I don't wanna know If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

hahaha... huwala lng.. :D

let me love you...

Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are, you stick around and I just don't know why

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes, Out of control, baby you know

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Ooh Baby good love and protection Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me....

You deserve better girl (you know you deserve better)
We should be together girl (baby)
With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!
So can we make this thing ours?

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

haiii...

You ain't got to buy nothin'
(it's not what I want)
Baby it's you
We don't have to go nowhere
(it's not what I want)
Baby it's you
It's not 'bout what you got
I know you got alot
No matter what you do, You always get it hot,
Its you (its you)
Baby all I want is you

I LOVE YOU TRES!!!

nangyare noon hangang ngayon

2005-01-17T20:00:00.000+08:00

teka bago un song muna tau...

martyr by sugarfree

patay na ang mga ilaw
walang ibang nandito kundi ako
bakit ba kailangan ako maiwan
bakit ba kailangan mong lumisan

kailan ka ba
muling darating
malapit nanamang magtakip silim
tama bang
umasa't humiling
marami pa akong dapat sisihin

ilang ulit ba itong nangyari
ilang gabi at dilim
maraming beses nang iniyakan
maraming beses. hindi nakayanan

kailang ka ba
muling darating
malapit nanamanng nagtakipsiim
at kahit na ilang ulit mo na akong sinaktan
nais lamang ay makapiling ka

kailang ka ba
muling darating
malapit nanamanng nagtakipsiim
at kahit na ilang ulit mo na akong saktan
basta't sa susunod di mo na ako iiwan

kailang ka ba
muling darating
malapit nanamanng nagtakipsiim
at kahit na ilang ulit mo na akong sinaktan
basta't sa susunod di mo na ako iiwan

grabe noh? kahit ilang ulit mo pa akong saktan... aus lang basta mahal parin kita.. martir ako sau...di lang un, gagawin ko lahat para lng sau...nagpapakamartir ako ng todo todo kahit galit xa saqn...ako ang hari ng sablay, ako ang hari ng sablay hinding hindi makasabay sabay sa hangin ng aking buhay, hri ng sablay ako ang hari ng sablay ako ang hari, ako ang hari...sorry kung di kita hinabol, sorry tayo'y malabo mayamaya lang ay may ilaw na pero sana malaman mo magkailaw man madilim parin kung wala ka...di mo lang alam o akala mo lang kailangan ko rin ng pahinga sa problema...ayaw ko na mabuhay mundo'y nawala nang kulay dahan dahanpuso ko'y bumibigay wag na raw akong umasa wag nang magmakaawa wala na akong magagawa tapos na ang lahat...ako'y isang malungkot na bata palakad lakad lang wala rin naman mapupuntahan at madalas madulas at nung parang ayoko na...nanginginigna mga kamay puso kong hndi mapalagay pwede ba kita tabihankahit may iba ka nang kasama...isang tama sampung mali ganyan ako pumili id na mababawi ng puso kongf sawi daig pa ng telenovela kung ako ay magdrama ganyan ba talaga guhit ng aking tadhana...di makapagisip hindi mapakiali kung wala ka ata parang kay tagal tagal mundo'y bumabagal kung wala ka...di ko na kayang mabuhay sa kahapon...sumasapit ang dilim na walang mga bitwin ispi mo ba'y nalilito mahal mo na ba ako/ kilala mo ba ako? pagkatapos ng gulo, sino ba talaga ako? ako'y katulad mo, na marunong masaktan, nasusugatan nabibigo...

hirap naman ng ganito...gashness d q na matake, nagiging gay naq d2, pg aq natuluyan.......yoko nang ituloy, naka2cra na ng baet sobrang mahal q at sobrang patay na patay aq (im crazy for you!!!!!) sobrang ngppka martir aq kay tres...kahit ilang ulit mo pa akong saktan...(nagpapakasaya na q peo itsnot working dude!) d q tlaga mtago... " i try to laugh but cry instead patiently wait to hear thewords you've never said" "every morning when the sun would shine on me i flash a smile but deep inside i feel so sad ang lonely i need you here with me" pancin q lng ah na d na q mxadong kumakain, wla nman kelangan i-diet...

dis sux man! pede b m2log nlang 4ever contento na q dun, kc pg andn aq sa pnaginip q khitd nea q mhal at galet xa sa 22ong buhay at list sa panaginip q mgkasama kme...o dba? gs2 q ulit mging batakc nung bata aq la qng paki sa pgibig...nuod,kain,tuolog lang ang alam qng gawin...peo ngaun mrami ng alam, tpos sbra pa kng umibig...its eder sa dulo masaya o saw...och pare! gash..nkita q un filecase q, tpos andunpic ni tres ohh dba? my pic pa nea) ang gnda nea tlga grabe...gs2 q nga mgflashbak nung mga datingpnahon na hndi pa xa galet saq... k2lad last oct. 18 last yir...(wahaha)un pnahon na i "accidentally" na hug q xa b4 nun mgkakila2 lng kme, tpos nghi2nge lng xa ng palanca at pic ni *toot* saqn...den came wan day 4got wat date so un...vcenue was galle...nkaupo kme ng mga frends q sa labas ng starbux den dumaan ang isang grupo ng mga gr.7 girls (yeah) nung una d q lam na andun xa eh kc i was pisikaly present but mentaly absent (wehehe)...tpos wan priday apternun sa fild, andun kme ngppractis mgign softbol plyer, andun cla ksama nea frend nea tpos ngkaron cla ng gurl tok, den my cnabe xa saqn.....nka2flat na nka2kilig un cnabe nea nung pnahon na un, peo lm q rin mga bndang oct un eh...wla plang un eh...ngsmile lng aq nung pnahong un eh...ngttxt kme sa isa't isa un dn nung pnahong un...note: i wasn't single wen i met her...so un npncin q na nahu2log na qw sa knea, i left d oder person jst 4 her.. pra lng s knea..jst for her tlaga...grabe di i tu much...nd now shes mad, yokong iniwasan nea q peo kng gs2 nea "aq nlang ang lalayo, kung okey lang sayo"...."habang tumatagal lumalala laging nagwawalas, tumitindi umiinit sumasakit ang dibdib kaya ako'y gumawa ng awiting ito na alay ko sayo ata san'y pakingan mo..."... kea nga nilbas q nln sa softbol un mga nraramdman q eh...

grabe nkakacra pla ng ulo ang softbol pati nrin c tres nkakacra..."she f*ckn hates me" ngaun lm q na filin ni bespren nung ngalet un crux nea sknea at khit anung sorry gwin nea ayaw prin xang ptawarin...now i know how it fills..nd it hurts like hell...all i cud thnk about every single minute is her, even during softbol xa lage..dats y im often absent minded wen were playin in d fild... coz i was olweys watch her play volley bol from d oder side of d fild...hai...

may sikret aq...kaso meron ng nakakaalam (sikret pa ba un?) 5 clang may alam... peo sna d umabot dun sa taong unanu kea mngya2re pg nlaman nung taong un...will i make my move r will i jst stay torpe (joke)... wan q kng anu ggwain q.. kc "temptation" eh... d pede LOYAL AKO!!!! chaka nlang c "temptation" ...nyak pgngsawana q sa kakamahal...nyek d wala rin sawa na eh..mlapet na bumugay puso q o d kea bumigay na tlaga...jea prang yoko mlaman nea, filin q im fallin agen, i nid lifesaver...kain kea q ng lifesaver bka sakaling masave aq khit pano...malay neo my point kng bkt xa tnawagh na life saver...wehehe...

sakit tlaga ng left elbow q, hrap gumalaw...grabe un naalala q ang ngyare saqn, nhulog aq sa hagdanan...4 days b4 intrams...pinilit q na nga lang eh bsta mkalaro aq khit msakit...nhulog pa kc sa hagdanan eh..yan kc tatanga tanga...d nkita na mtatapakan na un sapatos ng kpatid un 2loy nhulog...katangahan...peo ngtataka tlaga aq coinsidens b na iniicip q c tres nung tym na nhulog aq sa hagdan...coinsidens? r not? i rily dnt knw...

sna tlga mpatwad nq q ni tres...premis d q na uulitin un...pramis tlaga!!!! cross my heart nd hope to diE agad!!! pnagccchan q na mga gnawa q...sori...

may naicip aq, anu kea bili aq ng bear tpos my card sayin "im sorry" galing saqn...palagay q sa table nea, ptawarin kea nea q kso bka icipin nea dinadaan q xa sa stuff toy at card...hhhmmm...hyaan mo na...mite sa wel gib it a shot...tpos sabaypgdating ng dismisal mgsori aq sa hrap nea sabay luhod...xempre sinsire dpat khit mukang hnde (joke) peo im rili sinsire wen i say sorry..lalo na nun tnangal q un cap q nung ng sori aq s knea ng hraphrapan, jst 2 show respect 2 her...tpos un tym na lumuhod aq s hrap nea nkauko aq tpos sabay tingala sa knea sayin sorry...nilakasan q loob q pra lng sa knea...dhil sbrang mahal q xa...nver q pa gnawa yn sa iba...khit pauliulit qng gwin yan s knea aus lng...alang2 sa knea...gnyan q xa ka love...cno n b nkakita saqn na iniiyakan ang crux? onti plang...kgabe umiyak aq kxo lang witnes, sna nrinig ng kpatid q (chismosa un eh)...hehe..

may knta ulit aq last na 2 before i go...d pa xa buo...from moonstar88

umiiyak ang aking pusong nagdurusa
ngunit ayokong may makakita
kahit anong sakit ang aking nararanasan
iyan ay ayokong kanyang malaman

mga araw na nagdaan
kaialan man hindi malilimutan
kay tamis ng mga araw ng pagmamahalan
nung akala ko'y walang hangganan

ang pagibig kong ito
luha ang tanging nakamit buhat sa iyo
kaya't sa may kapal tuwina'y dalangin
sana'y kapalaran ko ay magbago...

ohh.. dba? cge ihab to go na so little time, jst one person to thnk about...

SORRY TALAGA TRIXIA!!!!!!!!!

sorry trixia....

2005-01-03T17:11:00.000+08:00

(I'm sorry)
(I'm Sorry)
It's like I missed a shot,
It's like I dropped the ball.
(Damn I'm Sorry)
It's like I'm on stage,
and I forgot the words.
(Damn, I'm sorry)
It's like building a new house,
with no roof and no doors.
(Damn, I'm sorry)
It's like trying to propose,
and I ain't got the ring.
(Oooh damn I'm sorry)

But girl I've apologized
a million times before.
(I'll apologize a million more)
So here it comes again
for all the wrong I've done.
(so get ready babe)
Here's One million one.

Girl this is my sorry for, 2004.
And I aint gonna mess up no more, this year.
I'm 'a take this one chance,
and make it real clear.
I'm sorry for May and
I'm sorry for June (for real)
and I'm sorry for July (i am)
in case I dont tell you.
August, September, October, November 'till your December.
I'm Sorry. (I'm sorry 2004)

Its like stayin' out at night,
had way too much to drink.
(Damn, I'm sorry)
It's like you change your hair,
and I dont say a thing.
(Damn I'm sorry)
It's like we're fallin' fast asleep,
with no kiss,
and before we hit.
(yeah I'm sorry)
And It's like I forgot your gift,
on 02 14 03.
(Damn! So sorry!)

But girl I've apologized
a million times before.
(I'll apologize a million more)
So here it comes again
for all the wrong I've done.
(so get ready babe)
Here's One million one.

Girl this is my sorry for, 2004.
And I aint gonna mess up no more, this year.
I'm 'a take this one chance,
and make it real clear.
I'm sorry for May and
I'm sorry for June (for real)
and I'm sorry for July (i am)
in case I dont tell you.
August, September, October, November 'till your December.
I'm Sorry. (I'm sorry 2004)

Its like stayin' out at night,
had way too much to drink.
(Damn, I'm sorry)
It's like you change your hair,
and I dont say a thing.
(Damn I'm sorry)
It's like we're fallin' fast asleep,
with no kiss,
and before we hit.
(yeah I'm sorry)
And It's like I forgot your gift,
on 02 14 03.
(Damn! So sorry!)

I'm sorry for the way that I did you
I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart for how I hurt you girl
I'm sorry on the weekends, sorry on the weekdays
sorry for the things I did, Sorry for the things i said
sorry for the lies
sorry for the time
That I didn't get you what you want,
That I didn't get you what you like.
What can I do to tell you that I'm sorry babe.
(sorry, sorry)

Oooooooooooooohhhhhhh!
Wooooooooh!
All them strip clubs,all them hot tubs.
I'm gone give them up,
'cause I dont want to lose your love

Girl this is my sorry for, 2004.
And I aint gonna mess up no more, this year.
I'm 'a take this one chance,
and make it real clear.
I'm sorry for May
and I'm sorry for June (for real)
and I'm sorry for July (i am)
in case I dont tell you.
August, September, October, November 'till your December.
I'm Sorry. (I'm sorry 2004)

Girl this is my sorry for, 2004.
Sorry 2004
Girl this is my sorry for, 2004.
Sorry 2004

para sau yang kantang yan...sorry na!!!
SORRY NA!!!!

it's all in my head....

2004-12-29T14:01:00.000+08:00

haaaiii...cguro iniicip q lng, nblgla cguro aq dun xa mga nlaman q...i just wish na xana d q na un nlaman. d sana aq gani2 ngaun..ang lungkot ng pasko q eh..kakaicip kng 22o b ung mga nlaman q...d na q halos naka2log kkicp lng dun...d nman aq galet eh...mxakit lng, xempre cno b nman ang d mxa2ktan kng mlaman mng un taong xbrang mhal mo mhal prin "daw" un x nea...ouch pare...peo i just wish na xana d 22o un...peo feel q galet c tres saqn...FEEL q lng ah.. nt xur kng galet tlaga xa, d kc ngre2ply eh...peo maly q ba...malay mo wla lng xang load (yan ang prob. pg pre-paid eh...nyak palibasa plan aq...)

hala pano pg galet xa, ehhh pano na un...i hab 2 consult an xpert...(898-777...hulaan neo kng kninung # yan..hahaha) okei cge na tama na klokohan...anu ba! d q na 2loy lam ga2win q, nkakabato na xa bhay...khapon pnta aqng galle...kxama q...xempre........xempre hulaan neo kng cno? tag kau tgnan natin kng tama sagot neo...hahaha...peo bog kme ngpntang galle, dumaan muna kme xa shang...my cnamahan kme bumila ng regalo pra dn xa ixa nmeng kaibgan na my bday ngaun...tpos un...pnta na kmeng galle...kain kme sa...LOVE KO TO...hahaha n2ral xa MCDO..wlang kmatayang MCDO...peo, sa gitna ng kain nmen, nwalan aq ng gana...hai...mai iniicip kc eh...yan 2loy nwalan ng gana, xarap p nman ng cheese burger ; go big time pa...aaahhhh gana ng oraas para mwalan ng gana kumain...langhya...tpos after nun...wla ikot lng kme ng galle...hangan mg 8:45 ng gabe...tpos sakay kme ng fx....ac2ly my hnihnatay kmeng "sign"......so un pg sakay nmen fx, baba kme sa megamall dun pa sa my EDSA shangrilla hotel...tpos ngkita kme ng mga kaibigan nman...xakto pgbaba...una qng nkita un sapatos tpos un jeans tpos un jacket tpos un mukan...tpos sabay sabay kmeng ngsabe ng "UY!!!! ano gnagwa neo d2?" hahaha la lng.. tpos pasko kmeng megamall tpos un mg binile kme...tpos un pnta n shang at dun kme nghwahwalay...un tpos commute na kme pa uwi...aun tpos nkauwi na q xa bhay mga 9:15

tpos pgkabihis q, bnuksan q un radjo...laghiya pra tlagang scritpted ang buhay q....aun la aqng mga2wa tpos cnundan pa ng ixang knta na nka2rel8t aq...tpos un kala q pagod na pagod na q, peo ng nkahiga na q dun xa kma q...t***........un...tpos nuod nlgn aq ng tv...lm q mga2let nnman c janine dhil my pnanuod aq na ayaw nea papanuod saqn...hahaha PASAWAY tlaga eh noh...hahaha lam na ni janine kng anu un...xabe nga nea dati ixu2mbogn daw nea q ky "tres" dhil na nu2od aq nun...kea tkot na tkot aqng sumuway sa knea eh...peo ngaun....wahahaha...sumbung nea...joke....

my tnawagan aq kgabe............................................................................kxo prang un voice nea ang sad sad... xana mlaman nea na d aq galet xa knea...chaka xbrang mahal na mahal q xa...

I LOVE YOU T*****!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AS IN SOBRANG MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA!!!!!!!!!

di ko alam

2004-12-23T14:19:00.000+08:00

ang gulo tlaga ng mundo...di mo maintindhan...isang araw sbhin sau mhal ka, su2nod na araw hindi na my iba na.
tpos eto pa ang masaklap, pinaasa ka nea...tpos bnigyan mo pa xa ng gift for christmas..prang nabale wala lng..kc my mhal xang iba...di ko na alm ga2win q...lagi nlang sawi sa pagibig....lalao na pg spexal ocaxons...hai ayoko na..sarap na nga sapakin nung mhal nea eh...kaxo baka mgalet pa saqn crux q..grabe nung tlagang nlaman q un..halos nasira na un cabinet ko sa kwarto, tps mga tao di2 sa bahay.....uh...d q nlang i22loy...d tlaga aq mkapagpigil...un pintuan ng cabinet q, halos nabutas na...tpos habang nxa banyo aq nghu2gas ng kamay...bgla qng naicip ung mga cnabe saqn...pinagsuntok q un ding2...muntik nang ncra un kamay q...uxually oder pipol nglalaslas...peo aq iba...bkt pa q mglalaslas, dugo lng nman la2bas (eh takot aq xa dugo..) kea mmsmgandang broken bones nlng kesa sugat...dame q nang sugat sa puso, mglalaslas p q...i duno how i put up with this...bute at buhay p q ngaun...although nung nlaman q un...bgla aqng nanghina..oo grabe, nwalan aq ng gana kumain...di pa nga aq kumakain ng breakfast at lunch...tpos kgabe, d pa q kumakain ng dinner...talgang....hai ewan q...d q lam kng anu mraramdaman q...peo lam q naiinis aq peo d q lam kng kanino..
my ngtxt saqn ng kowt eto oh:

"minsan ang sarap mag - isip..isipin na mahal kita at mahal morin ako..na bagay tayo..na sana tayo na..pero minsanmeron talagang magsasabi GUMISING KA NGA!.. may mahal siyang iba.. ouch!"

aray q...xabe ng ixa qng kaibigan wag daw aq mgpaka martyr sa knea, pinaasa nea q tpos cnaktan pa q...tpos bgla nlang my ngtxt "hindi ako martyr at bulag sa pag-ibig. pero kung yan ang gusto mo para mapatunayang mahal kita gagawin ko! dahil ang mahalin mo ay sobra ng panghilom sa bualg at martyr na puso ko!"
haii..ewan q na sabe ng mga kaibigan q, wag daw aq mxadong paapekto...tpos inicip q bago q pa mlaman un, nkatxt q pa xa da day bfore...tpos nxt day...bglang ......langyang buhay toh...ayoko na 2loy...peo kelangn mxanay na...kng lageng ngya2re saqn...ang inicp q ng nkuha q ung mexage na un...kung ixa qng kaibigan na well...bsta...ganun na un, inicip q xa kc bka kng anu gwin na kgaguhan, tpos knina xabe nea aq rin daw wg gumawa ng kagaguhan...peo grabe pg un nakita q, xana lng my pumigil saqn kc tlagng natatamaan un saqn...tpos tnatanung saqn kng panu na daw aq...wala na c tres panu na q...ewan q bhala na, paxalamat tlaga ung gagong un bakasxn...ang sakit ng filing, xa na nga lng talga ngiixa sa puso q..i mean tlagang xa nlng la ng iba tpos gani2 pa ga2win nea...xana lng cnabe nea..keasa pinaasa pa nea q...xana lng, aray ko!!!! ouch pare!!! di ko lam kng anu ga2win q...kng my car lng aq mgdrive nlng aq. o kea kng pyagan lng aq lumabas..pnta nlang aq xa bhay ng kaibigan q tpos inum kme..kxo langyha tlaga buhay na toh...grabe sa pain...halos paminsan minsan nlgn ang saya sa buhay na toh...xarap mgwala...but im not d typ f person hu does that..ang way ng pagwwla q kakainba...then i though of pglalaslas...(wat da hell?...kagaguhan) prang my mga2wa un...prang pg gnawa q un...bblik xa saqn...d nman dba? so wat d point of duin it...im just lusing my head hir...i rily cant take d pain na gnawa ni tres saqn...another scar in my heart...d pa nga nghheal un iba eh...as in..i cn still fill d pain na nilagay ng iba...d2 parin sa heart q...burning...sakit pa nga eh...d na ata kaya ng band air...it jst hurts like hell...tpos xabayan m p ng kanatang over and over by nelly...ang sakit tlaga grabe...OUCH!!!

cuz it's all in my head
i think about it over and over again
and i can't keep picturin' you with him
and it hurts so bad
yeah cuz it's all in my head
i think about it over and over again
i replay it over and over again
and i can't take it (yeah) i can't shake it no

i can't wait to see you
wanna see if you still got that look in your eyes
that one you had for me before we said our goodbyes
and is a shame that we gotta spend our time
bein mad about the same thing
over and over again
oh but i think she's leaving
oh man she's leavin
i don't know what else to do
i cna't go on not lovin you

cuz it's all in my head
i think about it over and over again
and i can't keep picturin' you with him
and it hurts so bad
yeah cuz it's all in my head
i think about it over and over again
i replay it over and over again
and i can't take it (yeah) i can't shake it no

i remember the day you left
i remember the last breath you took right in front of me
when you said that you would leave
i was to damn stubborn to try and stop you or say anything
but i see clearly nowand this choice i made keeps playin in my head
over and over again(playin in my head)
over and over againoh i think she's leavin
oh man she's leavin (yeah)i don't know what else to do
i can't go on not lovin you

cuz it's all in my head
i think about it over and over again
and i can't keep picturin' you with him
and it hurts so bad
yeah cuz it's all in my head
i think about it over and over again
i replay it over and over again
and i can't take it (yeah) i can't shake it no

now that i've realized that i'm goin down
from all this pain you put me through
everytime i close my eyes i like it down
oh...i can't go on not loving you

cuz it's all in my head
i think about it over and over again
and i can't keep picturin' you with him
and it hurts so bad
yeah cuz it's all in my head
i think about it over and over again
i replay it over and over again
and i can't take it (yeah) i can't shake it no

cuz it's all in my head
i think about it over and over again
and i can't keep picturin' you with him
and it hurts so bad
yeah cuz it's all in my head
i think about it over and over again
i replay it over and over again
and i can't take it (yeah) i can't shake it no

over and over again
over and over again
cuz its all in my head

nakakabato na

2004-12-20T11:37:00.000+08:00

langhiya...baksxon na...nababato naq d2 xa bhaya ah...bumile na aq ng bagong movie card pra sa ps q, peo langhiya di pla un movie card q dati ang my cra, un ps q pla...xarap na tuloy ihagis...nkakabad3p, xited na xana aq mglaro at tpucin ang resident evil 2 chaka bble na dpat aq ng game shark at resident evil : nemesis...peo, putres! cra rin pla...tpos, d pa q halos nka2log...pagcing gcing aq, kc kxama q parents q xa kwar2 palibsa d2 kc n2log mga pinxan q...langhiya gs2 q na nga cla paalicn eh..la 2loy aqng kwarto dhil xa knila...tpos maingay pa, pu**** ***...di 2loy aq mkapg guitara ata p2g2g...d na nga aq mkanuod..bute nkkpag computer pa q...telepono? mdjo aus pa, kxo d2 un tita q my kalaban na q...tpos d pa q mkalabas ng bhay, kc mum q...layas ng layas d 2loy aq mkapnta sa bhay ni bespren pra mglaro kme ng ps2 sa mp, okea ng bumpcars, o kea pnta ng mall...langhiyang buhay toh...mbbnas na q...tpos crux q di pa ngrrply...anung pecha na!!!

ang badtrip tlaga, gs2 q na nga uminom eh...k2lad ng ixang gabe...uminom aq...anubos q un ixang bote ng..anu ulit un? d q na maalala un pagnalan...bsta nkaubos aq ng ixang bote nun...mga mg12 n aun...xo mdjo inan2k aq, tpos nka2log aq....hnihntay q kc un txt ng janine eh...tagal ngrply...so...un tpos ngcing aq ng mga 3 ng umaga...tpos 2mwag c janine sa cell q..langhiya gcing p pla un..dhil daw......oooppps d pede sabhin secret lng un....bwahahaha...tpos pna2log q xa (d q knanthan, cnabe q lng na m2log na xa...) tpos un n2log peo pgcing gcing daw...aq nman di na q nka2log pgkatapos nun...peo in fairness ang gnda ng panagnip q nun time na 12 - 3 am...hahaha pggcing q...2wang 2wa aq...tpos knina rin, wan q kng anung oras bsta mganda rin...hahaha npanagnipan q crux q...hahaha at least xa panagnip nkkta q xa...yeah boi...hahaha...ow so saya...ng panaginip q..

haii...my sakit aq ngaun, my cough nd colds aq...nako!!!! panu na yan......my date pa q bka mhawa un kadate q...kelangan q mgpaagling...para di xa mhawa saqn...mkabile nga ng gamot...

haii..ala na q mxabe...cge hangang d2 na lng

2004-12-12T13:52:00.000+08:00

grabeh...last friday, putres na...d aq makatulog. wan q pa kng bkt. peo in fairness aus lgn, kc nkanuod aq ng blind date chaka ng 5th wheel...ASTIG...wahahaha...tpos nxt day, ngpnta un ixa qng frend sa haus, kc ala lng daw... nkita nea un kwarto qng napaka"ayos"...nyek. kitang kita q pa un reaxn nea pgpaxok xabe nea "wow! kim ang ayos nga!" hahaha...tpos un pg uwi nea, ngpakabait aq at ngaral (weh!). aun tpos dpat hindi aq ga2mwt ng telepono kxo mgngpapatawag, xempre d q xa maurungan kc xabe nea " kim, ok lng ba na 2mawag ka sa bhay? Ü salamat Ü" hahaha...muka na kc xang ngmamakaawa eh...joke..peo xempre, d q xa maurungan kc dati q xang crux (ooohhh...frends lng kme...) aun, okei..hai d pa q nka2bile ng gift xa mga frends q, ngaun nga kme bble ni besprend eh...kxo hinihntay q mga magulang qmkauwi, xempre peperahan q cla...bwahahaha...peo my kpalet, xabe nla bbgyan dw nla aq ng pera pg uwi nla pg bnantyan q mga kpatid q....ohh, nd it was hell!!!! putres ang gulo ng bahay, hahaha...peo aus lng d nman aq ung mapapagalita eh, cla...wahahaha

haiii...bglang qng ipa2xok ang akng lablyp sa picture....

lablyp q...aus lng, mdjo my kulay....but criusly, it okei...
hahaha...i have a song "pare ko" by eraserheads

O pare ko,
Meron akong problema.
'Wag mong sabihin "na naman".
In-love ako
Sa isang kolehiyala.
Hindi ko maintindihan.
'Wag na nating idaan
Sa maboteng usapan
Lalo lang madaragdagan
Ang sakit ng ulo at bilbil sa tiyan.

Anong sarap,
Kami'y naging magkaibigan.
Napuno ako ng pag-asa.
Yun pala,
Hanggang doon lang ang kaya.
Akala ko ay puwede pa.
Masakit mang isipin,
Kailangan tanggapin.
Kung kailan ka naging seryoso,
Saka ka niya gagaguhin.

O Diyos ko! Ano ba naman ito?
Di ba, 'langhiya *
Nagmukha akong tanga.
Pinaasa niya lang ako.
Lecheng pag-ibig 'to.Diyos ko,
Ano ba naman ito?

Sabi niya,
Ayaw niya munang magkasyota.
Dehins ako naniwala.
Di nagtagal,Naging ganun na rin ang tema.
Kulang na lang ang sagot niya.
Ba't ba ang labo niya?
Di ko maipinta.
Hanggang kailan maghihintay,
Ako ay naiinis na.

Pero,Minamahal ko siya.
Di biro,
T.L. ako sa kanya.
Alam kong nababaduyan ka na
Sa mga sinasabi ko
Pero sana naman ay maintindihan mo.

O pare ko,Meron ka bang maipapayo?
Kung wala
Ay okay lang.Kailangan lang ay
Iyong pakikiramay.
Nandito ka ay ayos na.

hahaha..ala lng gs2 q yang kantang yan eh... okei so anu pa b msshare q...wla na life semd so plain d past few wiks...wan q kng bkt..but paminxan minxan, my nngya2ring xcitement wahahaha xempre...my times na malungkot my times na mxaya...m2ral maxaya kc nqta un crux na xbrang patay na patay ka...pg ngiti lng nea xau, n22nau ka na xa hrap nea..o d kean pg kinakauxap ka bgla kng mwa2lang ng xa2bhin, bgla nlng matotorpe...o d kea mahihiya nlng bsta2 ng wlang rason...haayy..xempre gnyan tlaga pg inlab ka, tpos khit d ka nea, gs2 oh...kng anun man ang relaxn neo xa ixat ixa (relaxn i mean...frends b kau, m.u, crux m xa peo iba crux nea, my kaon na xa...peo crux m prin xa...o kng anu p man) xempre...khi mgkakila2 plang kau...papagudxot k na, pa2ka bait ka pg andjan xa...kelangn rng punorma...malay mo lng my hindi xa cnaxabe xa mga frends nea o my tinatago cla ng frends nea xau...xempre khit anu p man ang mgyare pg crux/mahal/ o kng anu pa man kelangan mo bgyan ng regalo...malay mo! dba? nax....xempre kelangan mo alamin kng anu gs2 nea, peo wg kng phalata o kea ixurprix m xa bgla...bgyan mo ng KISSes...hahaha...o kea bear pra my mahug xa pg sad (cguro nman maalala nea un taong ngbgay xa knea ng bear at bglang ittxt na "ui *urname* pede k b 2mawag xa bhay" or stuff lyk dat) oh dba? hanep!!!! oei cge na ihabto go...pnta na qng bahay ni besprn, wer gona buy gifts 4 pipol...haha. okei hab a nice day....

baby taz...read this

2004-12-12T13:50:00.000+08:00

kanta q ky *taz*

I see the way he treats you,
I feel the tears you cried,
And it makes sad, and it makes mad,
There's nothing I can do baby.
Cause your lover is my best friend,
And I guess that's where the story ends.
So I've gotta try, to keep it inside.
You will never be, never be mine but,

If I was the one who was loving you, baby.
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy.
And if I was by your side,
You'll never know one lonely night
And if it was my arms you were running to,
I'd give you love in these arms of mine.I
f I was the one in your life.

If I could have just one wish,
I'd wish that you were mine,
I would hold you near,
Kiss away those tears.
I'd be so good to you baby.
You're the one I want next to me,
But I guess that's just not meant to be.
He's there in your life, And he's sharing your nights,
It'll never be, never be right.

If I was the one who was loving you, baby.
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy.
And if I was by your side,You'll never know one lonely night
And if it was my arms you were running to, I
'd give you love in these arms of mine.
If I was the one in your life.

Yeah, baby.I wanna reach out and view beside me,
Right here beside me, babe.
Take you in my arms right there,
Scream 'I love you' right out loud.
Some day I pray, that I'll find the strength,
To turn to you and say,

If I was the one who was loving you, baby.
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy.
And if I was by your side,You'll never know one lonely night
And if it was my arms you were running to,
I'd give you love in these arms of mine.
If I was the one in your life.

If I was the one who was loving you, baby.
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy.
And if I was by your side,You'll never know one lonely night
And if it was my arms you were running to,
I'd give you love in these arms of mine.
If I was the one in your life.
If I was the one, if I was the one,
In your life.

tungkol kahapon (nov. 29, 2004)

2004-11-30T20:09:00.000+08:00

sobra na toh d q na alam kng anu b dpat qng maramdama (maga2lit b, magta2mpo o mgpaptuloy lng sa pghi2ntay). filing q kc mdjo ngmu2ka na ata aqng tanga xa gnagwa q eh, i mean aaminin q gnawa q lhat ng kaya q pra lng mtxt q xa (tres). tpos eto pa, nakbile na q ng regalo xa knea kxo d pa completo un. dersstill sumthing missing.
nga pla aus ang weder ngaun ah. sakto, kc sobrang miss q na xa, kxo mdjo naka2depress nman. bilang q araw na d q xa nakita eber siins friday hangang ngaun (nov. 26 - nov. 29) wan q lng bukas kn mgki2ta kme. pg bukas wla pa 5 days nang wlang silay, filing q bka umabot ng isang wik ng di q xa naki2ta (yoko nun) maccraan na q ng ulo pg ngyare un. eh ixang araw p nga lng na d xa naki2ta sirang sira na ulo q eh minsan nga nghi2na pa eh (nyak and OA) eh ixang linggo pa kea.
tpos halos d pa xa ngpa2ramda, minxan prang fil q na xumuko, kxo NO. inde aq ganun, i dont give up easily. hangang kaya q ga2win q (sabi nga nla, "if theres a will theres a way"). xabe nga nla saqn dati and player q daw, oo na cge na player na kng player. peo ngaun, hah! iba na toh pare! d na q 2mitingin xa ibng taong priti/mganda oh kng cnu man yng mga taong priti djan. oo lm q mrame djan, peo yoko na nghanap ng iba andjan na eh SAN KA PA?cguro pg mytinuro kau na priti or kng cnuman tao bka either maki2ryd on lng aq or xabhn xa inyo na "okei lng" r "aus lng". kc sa ixang tao lng aq nga2ndahan at xobrang xa lng tlaga. khit kauxapn p q ng mga x-crux/es q. cguro xa iba pgngyare un bka my poxibility na bumalik un dating filings nla dn xa taong un peo aq aus lng. prang wla lng. khit na crux nla q (ngyek ngaun p kau ngkacrux kng kelan wla na..gnda neo rin eh..ngyek ang yabang!) or wla lng, wla rin aus lng. peo bgla qng natanung xa sarili q " bkit prang bgla silang ngsilitawan kng kelan wla na?" r minxan bgla qng natanung xa xarili q " byan ngaun p kau ngtxt/ tumawag, dati xbrang desperado aq mgkuxap kau o mtxt man lng...bkt ngaun pa?". wla lng naka2pag taka lng, peo cguro kng c "tres" bglang ngtxt o tumawag cguradong mapa2talon aq xa tuwa. kc nman mdjo lng, anung pecha na? bute ngparamdam ka, kla q kng anu ng ngyari xeo eh...prang ganun.
pg di nga xa ngpa2ramdam bgla nlang aqng mapa2knta ng "crazy for you" at ng " ako'y sayo" peo uxually pg nxa skul un sitm8t q un pnapa kanta q, kc mdjo d mganda un boses q. spiking of boses, miss q nrin boses nea. pnapa2g2g nga ngaun xa radjo "wherever you are' by south border, kxo prang sbrang sad nman, lhat ng mga pnapa2g2g xa radjo ngaun araw na toh. knina, "officially missing you" byan, peo infairness aus un knta na un pra saqn pati xa weder, kc miss q na xa eh nd ol i hir is raindrops fallin on da ruftop, tpos ang lamig pa. wish q lng, xana myakap q xa, khit xandali lng. kxo filin q xa panaginip lng un poxibleng mngyare. pg un ngyare sa real life, plage na qng mgwwish kc, 22o pla un eh. mgha2nap na nga aq ng star 2wing gabe, pra mgakpag wish. peo xa ngaun an maya2kap q lng ay teddy bear/ gitar(s)/ unan un lng. si "tres" naaala2 q lng nun nyakap q xa by "axident" na mdjo cnaxadya, last october 18, 2004 (nax naaala2 pa un date) ngla2ro cla ng volleyball xa my H.S flagpole dismixal time. sobrang saya q nun eh, xarap nga ulit ulitin. xbrang xarap neo i-hug. tpos ang cute pa nea mgsmile, naka2tunaw ; dba mnxan cnaxabe ntin pg andjan un crux ng ixang tao uxualy cnaxabe ntin "ui tama na baka nman natunaw na yan". d tumatabla un saqn, kc instead na xa un matunaw, aq un na22naw xa knea eh. cguro pg lage kming ngki2ta at ngssmile xa saqn, klangan cguro pgdating q xa clasrum derecho hrap xa airco o kea pgdating xa bahay pasok agad sa freezer, pra ready for the next meltdown. (ala aq xa mood 2mawa ngaun xenxa na, kau nlng ang 2mawa pra saqn)
hai sbrang lamig nman, axan na kea un jacket qng color blue? nwala bgla xa clasrum nung family day. axan an kea un? cnu na kea nakakuha nun? my balak pa kea un nakakuha ibalik saqn? xana lng alagaan nea un pnakammhal qng jacket na blue. kc mdjo mdame aqng mga memories wid dat jacket, dame na kc nan panagdaan. at ang mga pangdaanana nmin na un, mgkaxama kme nung jacket na un. namimiss q na tuloy un blu qng jacket. ui blue jacket kng nxan k man ngaun, hope ur fine. miss na kta! (nyak prang tao un cnaxabhin, prang maba2sa ng jacket). ui nga pla un jacket qng black nd grey na ky "tres". i hope its kipin her warm, pgtyms na malamig/ nila2mig xa. xana rin inaalagaan nea un, kc kabi2li plang nun pnahiram q na xa knea (gash, iba tlaga pgmhal moh..mhal q xa kea ganun). xana un jacket inaalagaan (d literal) rin c "tres" pra saqn. "tres" i rili hope it kipin un warm, xana d ka na lamigin. cguro kng aq c "tres" at nsaqn un jacket ng crux q (d q cnaxabe na crux nea q...wish q lng) r un my crux saqn, icipn q nlng na prang hinuhug nea q, un prang un person na un ang nag....anu un? uh...bsta in english, i'l jst think dat d perxn hu owns d jacket is d one kipin me warm. oh diba? kng aq c "tres" kxo, inde c kim aq hindi c "tres" c "tres" crux q. at aqn un jacket na nxa knea. ac2ly, bnabalik na nga nea eh kxo xabe q wg na muna nea ibalik, kc incip q na mdjo mlamig panaho ngaun kea prang inicp q she's gonna need it. kea sabe q wag muna. yap, she's gonna nid it for example rite now. xbrang lamig. bumili nga aqng bagong jacket eh color grey xa. ala lng sharing. okei un lng ibang qng mga istorya nxt tym nlang...next post nlang. okei cge bye...hab a nice day...

Ang tindi!!!!

2004-11-14T07:50:00.000+08:00

hahaha..its 7:31 am..ang tindi q noh...di pa q tulog...peo tapos na q xa project q...hahahaha...ang saya...prang di pa nga aq inaantok eh..peo i bet mmya pgnakakita aq ng kama...deracho tulog q..peo di pede eh kc mmyang tanghali mgpparish aq, xo ang tulog q mmyang gabe na, tpos anung oras nman aq mggcing ng umaga...maaga o tangahli na? wahahaha. and i'm still alive and kicking ass...lalaro aq ng CS eh..nyak ang kulit q na kanina pa q post ng post...pang ilan q na to pang 3 q na ata...(ahh.. 3 as in tres) nyak ala lng...byan dpat mdjo low batt na q ngaun, peo mukang ang kulit2 q pa ngaun...(inde, inde aq nakadrugs...wag kaung mgalalala...kc pg nkadrugs aq bka mslalo aqng makulit o kea paibaiba ang mood) nyak alam ana alam eh...wahahaha...lapet na q umuwi sa bahy namen...mmyang mga 8 tpos...mglalaro ulit aq..nyak laro ng laro eh...kea nga player eh...joke lng...

lm neo ba, may secret kme ni bespren kng pano di maantok...ng di bumubili ng khit ano na pampagising...nasisimulasa sa letter...*toot*..kea nga highper pa kme ngaun...yan oh gcing na gcing pa kme...wahahaha...tpos kagabe pa kme nakaonline..pancinin neo...ay di neo pla mapapancin kc mga tulog kaung lhat...hahaha...mga tulog mga panapanaginopan neo mga tao keo...hbang nananginip keo kme gumagwa ng project...wahahaha..ngaun tpos na...sa wakas!!!! ala na kme problema...

motto namen is MIRINDA , lm neo ibig xabhin nun:

it means.......
ANG TINDI!!!!!

wahahaha...galing noh?...cge un lng time check...7:49 am
cge...bye...hab a nice day...

2004-11-14T05:13:00.000+08:00

hayy..4:06 in da morning..wow..naktagal aq...mmya mya mdjo aantukn na q..my namimiss lng tlaga aq ngaun...kcisang week rin un na d q xa nakita...boses lng...peo aus na un kesa wla...at least nrinig q un boses nea...hahaha...peo pgtxt mdjo mahirap kc eh..maly q b kng nxa knea un fone nea..nkita q un mga pic nea..ehh...maslalo q lng namiss eh...kea prang ang saya saya tuloy managinip...at least dun nakakasama q xa khit pnaginip lng noh...masaya p q alang prob pg panaginip...okei sa olryt..(nyak, xan q nnman un napulot?) byan..nakaksira na ng ulo..sarap na tuloy pumasok, nakakulong nlng aq xa bahay eh...nabulok nlng aq dun...nkahiga buong araw xa kam q...(ay ang tamad q tlaga) eh pra pgbglang inantok derecho tuloy...sabay mananaginip...(nyak obsesed sa pgddream) aus lng nmn managinip ng gcing kso ang dmeng istorbo/dstracxons..kea d mka conxentr8t. tpos sabayan mo pa ng sad song..k2lad ng "here without you"...mslalong nakakamiss..lalo na itong part na to :

Im here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time. Im here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams And tonight its only you and me.

hayy..so time check is 4:34 am..."mirinda ang tindi"...shox...ilang arw kea aq pwedng d ma2log...bka d xa pumayag na di aq ma2log...joke...wahahaha...so many tings to do so little time...gnigcing q lng xarili q...wahaha...ayoko na...nagu2tom na q...al bang pagkain jan...teka ala ng curfew...pede na kme bumile ni bespren ng pagkain xa 7 - 11...ano n kea ichura q...(teka check q.......inde alang pangkiba panget parin...hahaha) ang lamig ngaun ah...xana aus lng xa ngaun di nilalamig..well..cguro nman by this tym tulog na xa at nananaginip...okei...mxado na tlaga toh...d q na ata mss un eh...miss na miss q na xa...xuper as in sobra, grabe....nyak lahat lhatin q na kea...okei...puro xa..kc xa lng at xa lng tlaga ang ngiixang nxa utak q...oh pano byan 5:06 am na...tindi noh...d rin tinatamaan ng antok...buhay na to...i spend most of d time awake, less time asleep...kea minxan ang xarap xarap matulog spexaly pgnananaginip ka...wahahahahala naqng maxabe...okei...cge ito lng...gwa na q ng project...bye...hab a nice day...

2004-11-14T01:59:00.000+08:00

haha..kakatapos q lng mglaro...eto nga katbe q si lea$...mukang mamromroblema xa...tsk tsk tsk..ohh...bglang ngkabuhay...tara lets dance...hahaha...teka may pagkain pa ba? nagu22m na q...xabe nga ng ixang tao prang plage ka atang kumakain eh..wahaha...wel dats kinda tru...teka teka nahihighper si bespren..ang motto ni bespren ngaun imbis na "just do it"...."JUST LOSE IT!!!!" mukang on drugs itong kaibigan q..biglang nahighper...tpos mmya mya ala nnman xa sarili...wahaha...oohh teka ng ah...ngpa2g2g bigla ng sir mix alot...hahaha...(time check is 1:33...) okei...biglang pari aq nahihigh nrin...ano pa ba? ngpapakasaya aq khit sa loob inde..tryin to forget my probs kc eh...kea nga aq nglaro ng CS eh...pra mdjo lng mglabas ng galet kc mdjo lng papatay k ng mga tao dun...wahaha...tagal q nring d nglalaro nun eh...mmya ulit...pampagicing, pwera kape...hahaha...un katabi q..pra tlagang on drugs, knina ang mdjo na high ngaun prang na low batt ata...ala biglang nanahimik...byan...ano pa b mxa2be q...ahh kelangan q na tumawa sa mental naccraan na ang katabe q..wahaha...preho kmeng my MD (mental disorder) mas orig nga lng un akin...wahaha...okei..wat else in on da menu for today....joke wlan mamamatay tau xa gutom wlang menu eh...ahh dis sux...eto nnman kme..lusong our minds...haha..bute nlng my cheese as in keso.....xarap papakin...past life q ata mouse..nyak..ayoko na ang boring...ano ba? nakakasira na ng ulo...nka online aq..kmeng dlawa lng ni bespren ang nka online..."un iba nkaonline "i'm on sms" mga tulog nman" (-lea$) wahaha...mga tao ngaun mga nananaginip na..kme nananginip ng gising..peo ala pring makakatalo ng nananagimip ng tulog...msmasaya un...dameng ngyayare...(oohh wag mging green ang utak) ala na bng pagkain...nagugugtom parin aq...(time check 1:50) xabe mga ing ixang tao "oh ano na?" ala na q mxabe...yan inaantok na q peo inde...kelangan q mgcing...no time to isleep ngaun busy kame...dmeng gnagwa..(ano? puro kalokohan...nyek ano un) wahaha...nako! mukang naddpress c bespren..biglang nanahimik...(ano byan puro bespren...nyiiii)...yan ala na q mxabe...di bale nxt tynm nlng...okei...

2004-11-12T02:36:00.000+08:00

hahaha..my nhanap aqng kanta..eh kxo mxakit xa, kea di q nlang ippost peo eto un title "let the pain remain" wan q kng cno kmanta. kea un, bka kc my msaktan o mtamaan k2lad q ng nbaxa q..xenxa na puro lyrics ang andito xa blog q...di bale eto na mgppost na q ng nobela...game na? oke lets begin...peo pgpxenxahan neo na kc naba2liw aq d2 at cguro puro prob ang ila2gay q d2..aus lng b? lng inde iskip neo nlng un nobela...hahaha..okei

chapter wan: "saan nga ba ako ngkamali?"

bakit bgla xang lumayo? ano b gnawa q? xabe nea ang manhid q daw...(totot nman eh manhid aq..) xabe rin nea inxenxitive...(tangap q dnt wori) peo bkt nea toh gnagwa? wats da point of making iwas hah? wats da point of makinglaslas? w8 i thnk i knw..kc naxa2ktan ka na mxado n ktang nxaktan at gs2 mo nagn lumayo ng onti / tuluyan xaqn kc ang HBK q tlga (xa mga di nkkalam ng HBK..pnta kau xa frendster q un pic dun..intindhin neo...) oo na tpos...teka teka...aminin q na kea lhat...para ala nang prob. cge tama! aminin q na...oo inaamin q na manhid aq, inxensitive, player, # 1 paxaway, stupid a-hole...ano pa? lhatin mo na...lm q nman dmeng my galit djan xaqn eh...kea lhatin na ntin...pra lng prob...byan ngppkahirap pa q eh...dame kc ngoocupy ng puxo q...my mahl aq, tpos my crux aq, tpos my (2) kinakalimutang past, cnuxubukang mg muve on...at hbang ngyayari yan at d same time hniheal q un xugat na and2 xa puxo q mdjo mtagal na 2 peo ang hirap kalimutan un inxident na 2...ngayre ng birthday q...(ayan nnman tau....kim...puxo mo)...yoko na mga ikwento..chaka andjan nnman yan xa mga ibang pinost q in da past eh...kea d q n kelangan ikwento...kc lalo lng hahaba itong nobela q..pede ng mging tlang buhay..wahaha...kxo wag na!!! balik na tau...aun peo ang tanung q...pgkatapos nea gwin un ano na mngyayare? my pinagkaiba b? ewan...peo npancin q lng ever sins na ano...uh iniwan...tlgang game na game na q mg muve one...kxo inde eh plagi xang andajan xa picture, di na nwala...khit anung gwing q plaging my conecxon xa knea...ewan q kng bkt? parang un knta ng parokya ni edgar na un one step b un ngd i goes like this

It took one look
and forever lay out in front of me,
one smile then i died
only to be revived by you
there i was, thought i had everything figured out
goes to show just how much i know
about the way life plays out

i take one step, away
and i find myself coming back to you,
my one and only,
one and only you
ooOooh

now i know, that i know not a thing at all'
cept the fact that i am yours and that you are mine...oOh
you told me that this wouldn't be easy
and though i'm not one to complain

i take one step, away
and i find myself coming back to you,
my one and only,
one and only
i take one step, away
and i find myself coming back to you,
my one and only,
one and only you

un..sumthing like dat...as in plage xang andjan xa picture (in min not literaly)...bsta like i sed prang my conecxon plage...xa knea...and i knw wats on he mind...iniicp nea na im taking her 4 granted..uh no..inde...prang chamba na kauxap q xa sa fone bglang (for example) my ngtxt na gani2 ganyan...chuvanes...aun tpos bglang..aun....and d nman aq humihingi xa knea...xa mismo ang ngbbgay...(ang tanung kim...bkt mo tinatanggap?) i min un kixes...xabe nea xa nlng daw..peo bumuli prin aq...althought dala prin nea un kixes at cnama nea dn xa binigay q ky "kilala neo na" (un taong kinabbliwan q ngaun)...nd shes xayin na im taking her 4 granted...fine cge ah..tama yan..kya q nman eh...peo i knw she was jst tryn 2 help peo y did she say that im taking her for granted? san b q ngkamali?

chapter tu: "friends tayo? dba?

oo dame ngttanung ni2...ixa nrin si skittles dun...inincep nea plage na galet aq xa knea, pnira lng daw xa sa buhay q, xana dw d q na xa nakilala...(uh di aq nagsisisi na nakilala q xa... never qng pinagcchanun)...cnabe q na xa knea frends kme...peo ang tingin nea galet aq plage xa knea..uhh...bkt nman aq nggalet..uh i dont know mybe sumtimes xabe nga sa white chicks "i'm so freakin pissed"..wahaha..eh bkt...tpos xa2bhin nea dhil xa knea...(oo dhil dw xa knea tpos g tinanung mo kng ano gnawa nea xaxabhin nea "ewan, bka c naiinis ka na xaqn r sumthing"...uh tanung bkt nman aq naiinis ng ala nman nman xang gnagwa? d nman aq ngagalet ng wlang rason ah...)...ay nako malay q b kng ano iniicp nea ngaun..(n2ral nananaginp pa un teka time check nga "time check is 3:24 am"...time check has been brought to you by kim velasco...) wahaha...balik tau...aun...nakakabaxa lng nman aq ng utak pg gcin un taong bbxahan q eh...kc pagdrims..prang ang panget andun ka xa panginip nea, eh prang ang gnada ganda tpos bglang my eepal...nyak ang panget...kng aq rin un naiinis rin aq eh..xempre ganda na tpos bglang......uh okei.....panira..kea mmya nlang..mgconect tau xa knilang mga utak(s)..wahaha...woow ang lamig...nakakamis tuloy un jaket q na nky..."uknwhu" (xa prin un taong kunabbliwan q ngaun)...haayy..i min cnu b nman ang mgaakala na gni2 pla ka complicated ang mundo like i seys in dis song

magdamag nag-gigitara
ang bagal ng gabi
ang daming iniisip
ngunit wala namang masabi
nagsawa ka na ba?
subukan mong tumawa
tigilan ang pag-iisip
ipagpatuloy ang pananaginip

hindi ko maalala
ang lyrics ng kanata
kahit ako ang gumawa
iba naman ang nagsalita
mahirap talaga
kapag inaasahan ka
awitin at mga tula
na nag-mumula sa pera

hindi ko inakala na magkaka ganito
wala namang nagsabi na malabo ang mundo
di na rin namin inaasahang maintindihan
alam naman nila wala kaming paki-ilam kung
Saan man tuttungo at kung saan kami hihinto
kung bukas man o bukas patuluyan nang tapusin ang kanta

gising hanggang umaga
hindi mapakali
pinipiga ang utak
ngunit wala paring masabi
kapag pinilit mo
at hindi na totoo
ang awit na natapos mo
ay mawawalan ng tono

hindi ko inakala na magkaka ganito
wala namang nagsabi na malabo ang mundo
di na rin namin inaasahang maintindihan
alam naman nila wala kaming paki-ilam kung
Saan man tuttungo at kung saan kami hihinto
kung bukas man o bukas patuluyan nang tapusin ang kanta

huwag mo nang silang isipin pa
ayoka nang unahin ang iba sa pagkanta
hindi na dapat pagbigyan
ang buhay ay sadyang ganya
wala na dapat tandaan
pag tayo ay nag kakantahan...
hindi ko inakala na magkaka ganito
wala namang nagsabi na malabo ang mundo
di na rin namin inaasahang maintindihan
alam naman nila wala kaming paki-ilam kung
Saan man tuttungo at kung saan kami hihinto
kung bukas man o bukas patuluyan nang tapusin ang kanta

magdamag nag-gigitara
ang bagal ng gabi
ang daming iniisip
ngunit wala namang masabi

nagsawa ka na ba?
subukan mong tumawa
tigilan ang pag-iisip
ipagpatuloy ang pananaginip...

u knw jast lyk dat...hayyy ayan na my brain is shutting dwn ryt now..kc puro panginip..gs2 na ata ng utak qng managinip 2ngkol ky..."uknowhu" (oo na cge na mxado na qng nbbaliw xa knea...)..cge i'll jst continue d oder chapters nxt tym around..okei..cge...gudmorning..have a nice day...

2004-11-12T02:31:00.000+08:00

kanta q ky skittles, ung ibang part lng inde lhat...ibang parts lng.

Remember the times when we said
Our love would never end
I do, I still love you
My love is true, only for you
And now, I never thought it would be
You're love would all disappear for me
Am to blame
All that I know, there's so much pain

I just have to accept your goodbyes
I just have to accept even though my heart cries
I accept, when you said to me
That our loves not meant to be
Guess from now on
All I can do is accept

You gave me those sweet memories
Times when it's still you and me
Each day, I'm holding you near
All of our dreams, all seems so clear
And now, all those dreams are all gone
Now that it's all said doneIt's true, that our love is through
Now I'm aloneGuess I'm alone

You said I'll be forever
No more goodbyes, ever, never
Now that you're gone
I'll have to go on

2004-11-12T02:24:00.000+08:00

oh.. side a nman "forevermore" inde q knata yan khit knino...ala nman aqng yaka p ngaun eh mhal lng peo d kme..(wish q lng..kea nga ms mganda managinip kc xa panginip q mxaya aq kxama xa peo pg22ong buhay..eh mahirap na)

There are times when I just want to look at your face
With the stars in the night
There are times when I just want to feel your embrace
In the cold night

I just cant believe that you are mine now
You were just a dream that I once knew
I never thought I would be right for you
I just cant compare you with anything in this world
You're all I need to be with forevermore

All those years, I've longed to hold you in my arms
I've been dreaming of you
Every night, I've been watching all the stars that fall down
Wishing you would be mine

I just cant believe that you are mine now
You were just a dream that I once knew
I never thought I would be right for you
I just cant compare you with anything in this world
You're all I need to be with forevermore

Time and againThere are these changes that we cannot end
As sure as time keeps going on and on
My love for you will be forevermore
Wishing you would be mine

I just cant believe that you are mine now
You were just a dream that I once knew
I never thought I would be right for you
I just cant compare you with anything in this world
As endless as forever
Our love will stay together
You're all I need to be with forever more(As endless as foreverour love will stay together)
You're all I needTo be with forevermore...

2004-11-12T02:18:00.000+08:00

isa pang lyrics...ms mganda kc lyrics kesa kng anu2 ipost q d2..joke
if the feeling is gone by kyla...nax..crux q toh eh (oohh..wg mgalet)

If the feeling is gone
please don't pretend that you still love me
I can see it in your eyes
and it hurts to admit it
I can't tell that the feeling is gone

All i ask is just a little honestly
Though i know that you're not coming back to me
You know i'll do anything to make you stay
But i just have to let you know
If the feeling is gone

There is sadness in your smile
Though it try to conceive it
I can't tell if the feeling is gone

All i ask is just a little honestly
Though i know that you're not coming back to me
You know i'll do anything to make you stay
But i just have to let you know
If the feeling is gone

All i ask is just a little honestly
Though i know that you're not coming back to me
You know i'll do anything to make you stay
But i just have to let you know
I just have to let you know
If the feeling is gone....

2004-11-12T02:01:00.000+08:00

yan..once in a lifetime ng freestyle..dunno kng tama un lyrics
kc mdjo bago eh..pgpaxenxahan neo na kng mali...

Been thinkin bout ya baby
And I dont know what to do
All I think about is you
Seems everything around me
Things I've never understood
They all make sense when I'm with you.

Oh, I've heard it before
Finding so called love then you leave it all behind
But now I feel so sure
I'll listen to my heart this time(So I'll it on the line/ put my heart before my mind)

I know that what I've found is once in a lifetime
(and)I know there's no way out Coz its once in a lifetime
I've always been so lonely
No one there for me to hold
And every night was just so cold
Oh don't get me wrong i've been around
But i've resigned myself to thinking
Mine is just another story often told

Oh, I've heard it before
Finding so called love then you leave it all behind
But now I feel so sure
I'll listen to my heart this time(So I'll it on the line/ put my heart before my mind)

I know that what I've found is once in a lifetime
(and) I know there's no way out Coz its once in a lifetime

It's not like im runnin' outta
I'm takin' everything in stride
It's just i never thought i'd find
what would make me change my mind

I know that what I've found is once in a lifetime
(and) I know there's no way out Coz its once in a lifetime

2004-11-12T01:54:00.000+08:00

trip lng...joke...inde my bgla lng aq naicip...xempre c tres na un
un lng nman ang ngiixa xa utak q ngaun eh

I can't buy you fancy rings
Or all of the expensive things you're used to baby
No trips around the world no diamonds or pearls
To give to you baby
But what i've got a give is more precious
Than you'll ever knowMy deepest inner feelings my heart and soul

Cause all that i am is a man in love with you
Cause all that i am is a man who's heart is true
And in love with you

Oh baby
Oh girl, yeah, yeahGirl

i know you're not blind
Cause when i look into your eyes, you meet me half way
Yes you do
Just accept me as i am
Try to understand, that i want you always
Just give me the chance and i'll show you
The world my love, yeah, yeah
My deepest inner feeling, my heart and soul

Yeah yeah yeah

Denying all you aren't
I know you have your doubts about me (your doubts about me)
Just put them all aside
And follow where your heart leads

Cause all that i am is a man who loves you
All that i am is a man whose heart is true
Cause all that i am is a man who loves you
Man in love with you, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Oooohh, yeah, yeahOh, ooo, yeah
Man in love with you

2004-11-12T01:48:00.000+08:00

Bakit ngayon ka lang
Bakit ngayon kung kelan
ang aking puso y meron nang laman

Sanay nalaman ko
na darating ka sa buhay ko
Di sanay naghintay ako...
I kaw sana ang aking yakap - yakap
(Ikaw sana ang laging yakap - yakap)
Ang iyong kamay ang aking laging hawak
(Kamay lagi ang aking hawak)
At hindi kanya... (at hindi kanya)

Bakit ngayon ka lang dumating sa buhay ko
(Bakit ngayon lang dumating sa buhay ko)
Pilit binubuksan ang sarado ko nang puso
(Pilit binubuksan ang aking puso)
Ikaw ba ay nararapat sa akin
(Ikaw ba ay nararapat sa akin)
At siya ba y dapat ko nang limutin
(At siya ba y dapat limutin)
Nais kong malaman bakit ngayon ka lang dumating
(Nais malaman bakit ngayon lang dumating)

Ikaw sana ang aking yakap-yakap
(Ikaw sana ang laging yakap-yakap)
Ang iyong kamay ang aking laging hawak
(Kamay lagi ang aking hawak)
At hindi kanya... (at hindi kanya)

Bakit ngayon ka lang dumating sa buhay ko
(Bakit ngayon lang dumating sa buhay ko)
Pilit binubuksan ang sarado ko nang puso
(Pilit binubuksan ang aking puso)
Ikaw ba ay nararapat sa akin
(Ikaw ba ay nararapat sa akin)
At siya ba y dapat ko nang limutin
(At siya ba y dapat limutin)
Nais kong malaman bakit ngayon ka lang dumating
(Nais malaman bakit ngayon lang dumating)

Bakit ngayon ka lang dumating sa buhay ko
(Bakit ngayon lang dumating sa buhay ko)
Pilit binubuksan ang sarado ko nang puso
(Pilit binubuksan ang aking puso)
Ikaw ba ay nararapat sa akin
(Ikaw ba ay nararapat sa akin)
At siya ba y dapat ko nang limutin
(At siya ba y dapat limutin)
Nais kong malaman bakit ngayon ka lang dumating
(Nais malaman bakit ngayon lang dumating)

Ooh...Nais kong malaman ba t ngayon ka lang dumating
(Nais malaman bakit ngayon lang dumating)Oooh...oooh

ala lng naring q xa radio ng ixang araw
my naicip aq na tao..prang ganun un ngayare eh
kxo di q inamin xa knea...nung panhon na un.
peo nun dumating ang aug. 28, 2004 (nax alm pa)
inamin q..my nlaman aq na pinagsisihan q
kea un..mdjo nkarel8t aq ng nrinig un un song...
kxo mdjo nxaktan rin...

2004-11-12T01:46:00.000+08:00

my naalala lng aq tpos bglang nicip q 2ng knta ng nsync
xado na kcng mhal eh kea un..my naalala lng aq n insident

I just don't understand
Why you're running from a good man baby
Why you wanna turn your back on love
Why you've already given up
See I know you've been hurt before
But I swear I'll give you so much more
I swear I'll never let you down
Cause I swear it's you that I adore
And I can't help myself babe
Cause I think about you constantly
and my heart gets no rest over you

You can call me selfish
But all I want is your love
You can call me hopeless (hopeless)
Cause I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me unperfect
But who's perfect?
Tell me what do I gotta do
To prove that I'm the only one for you
What's wrong with being selfish?

I'll be taking up your time
Until the day I make you realize
That for your there could be no one else
I just gotta have you for myself
Baby I would take good care of you
No matter what it is you're going through
I'll be there for you when you're in need
Baby believe in me
If love was a crime
Then punish me
I would die for you
Cause I don't want to live without you
Oh what can I do?

You can call me selfish
But all I want is your love
You can call me hopeless (hopeless)
Cause I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me unperfect
But who's perfect?
Tell me what do I gotta do
To prove that I'm the only one for you

Why do you keep us apart
Why won't you give up your heart
You know that we're meant to be together
Why do you push me away
All that I want is to give you love
Forever and ever and ever and ever

You can call me selfish
But all I want is your love
You can call me hopeless (hopeless)
Because I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me unperfect
But who's perfect?
Tell me what do I gotta do
To prove that I'm the only one for you

Selfishly I'm in love with you
Cause I've searched my soul
and know that it's you
Selfishly I'm in love with you
Cause I've searched my soul
and know that it's you
Selfishly I'm in love with you
Cause I've searched my soul
and know that it's you..

To prove that I'm the only one for you
So what's wrong with being selfish, selfish, selfish, selfish...
So what's wrong with being selfish...

my namimiss ako

2004-11-12T01:45:00.000+08:00

my mga tao ako na nammiss..k2lad ni "tres". "skittles" at lalong lalo na si "baby taz". si baby taz..khit nxaktanaq nan ng b-day q aus lng, kxo nmmiss q na...(oopss tres wag mgtampo..) kc mnxan nlang ngpa2ramdam xa txt plagi ata kauxap un isang tao na espexal..wow, my spexal sum1 na toh..aq rin meon, kxo mkang nala2buan aq..filing q mlabo pagaxa q. xana nman my pgaxa...peo wg muna ngaun mhirap na, graduating kc. anu un? mghi2ntay aq hangang nxt yir?...mukang mhirap yan ah..bka pgfating ng nxt yir aq nlng ang ngka2gs2 xa knea, bka mmya iba na gs2 nea. ehh ala aq mga2wa kng ganun ang mngya2re...gnyan tlga ang tadhana sadyang mpaglaro..(xan ko nga napulot yan?)

tres, tres, tres...xabe nga ni skittles puro tres daw aq...mxado q na xang *wahaha... secret...eh lm neo na eh..my gashness...yoko na di q na lam ang ga2win q, wel ngaun kc lal tlga aq mgawa. n tres q ay na22log at na3ginp ng kng cno cno. peo aq...and2 ngiicip as usual although my gudnyt na q xa knea kninang ng 10 kc my pxok xa l8r...ay este cla pala my pxok si tres, si skittles, si baby taz...byan? tpos aq and2 xa bhay gumagwa ng projects..ngpu2no ng prblems..hayy

yoko ng mga tignan un mga pics ni tres kc mslalo q lng xa mami2ss..prng msfil q ang ang layo nea xakin..ay my kanta aq...pra ky tres...

Swaying room as the music starts
Strangers making the most of the dark
Two by two their bodies become one
I see you through the smoky air
Can't you feel the weight of my stare
You're so close but still a world away
What I'm dying to say, you bet

I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
It's all brand new
You'll feel it in my kiss
I'm crazy for you

Trying hard to control my heart
I walk over to where you are
Eye to eye we meet, no word at all
Slowly now we begin to move
Every breath I'm deeper into you
Send me to a standing still in time
If you read my mind, you'll see

I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
It's all brand new
You'll feel it in my kiss
You'll feel it in my kiss because

I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
It's all brand new, you'll feel it in my kiss
I'm crazy for you

And you know it's true, you know I'm crazy for you
And it's all brand new, you know I'm crazy for you
And you know it's true, I'm crazy, crazy for youI'm crazy for you

oh pra xeo tres...xado na kc qta nami2ss...nak2cra na ng ulo
peo bute nri2nig q pa boxes mo khit xa cellfone lng...mdjo mxaya naq nun
cge..na..b4 i complitly luse my mind just missing u...luvu..

through with you

2004-10-30T17:13:00.000+08:00

Can you see me
Floating above your head
As you lay in bed
Thinking about everything
That you did not do
Cause saying I love you
Has nothing to do with meaning it

And I don't trust you
Cause every time you're here
Your intentions are unclear
I spend every hour waiting for a phone call
That I know will never come
I used to think you were the one
Now I'm sick of thinking anything at all

You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just to give it back
No other lover has ever done that

Do you remember
The way we used to melt
Do you remember how it felt
When I touched you
Oh cause I remember very well
And how long has it been
Since someone you let in
Has given what I gave to you
And at night when you sleep
Do you dream I would be there
Just for a minute or two do you?

You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just to give it back
No other lover has ever done that

Heartache heartache I just have so much
A simple love with a complex touch
There is nothing you can say or do
I called to let you know I'M THROUGH WITH YOU

dahan dahan ka lng

2004-10-30T12:08:00.000+08:00

haaay...nako...bakit ba ganito anf buhay...mga tao..masakit nnman ang aking puso...may part na hinde may part na oo... gets neo na un...mga tao kc eh...mga kung ano anong pauxo...wag daw pancinin...(xelos lng xa eh)...tantanan nea xana..kc mdjo lng...anu kala nea...mdaji nea aq makukuha ulit...di aq ganun k2lad nung mga dati neang inagawan...mga chong iba aq xa knila..d aq ganun kadali bumalik pwera nlang kng talagang...(*ehem) un lam neo na...haay nako...at tama rin yan na xabihin kay *toot* na wag aq itxt, pancinin, iwaxan...at kun ano ano pa...(kala nea d q alam un....saw it comin!!!)...tandaan nea..i can connect...(matakot ka na *toot*!!!)...at tama rin yan na twagin c *toot* ng mga bagay bagay na di tama...hu does she think she is...kilala na b tlaga nea un ng as in kilalang kilala...("i dont think so" - agat) haaay...tpos si *toot* nakinig nman..(nacraaan nlang aq ng baet o kea ngwala nlang aq ng tuluyan o kea di q na kaya kc d nea q pnapancin...gumawa nlng aq ng karumaldumal)...xana lng tigilan na nea c *toot* kc pg di nea tinigilan un...gs2 nea ata aq magalet..pg gs2 nea, xabhin lng nea...pa2kita q na galet aq xa mga pinagga3wa nea at xa mga pinaxa3be nea ky *toot*...(kala m *toot* di q un alam..walang nagxa2be xakin nan...i just knw!!!!)...xubukan mo lng tlaga...try me!!! i dare you!!! tignan q lng kng hangan xan ka...kc d qt uurungan..peo xana kng gs2 mo makialam/xumiran ng buhay ng ibang tao..xana un akin nalang wag un ky *toot* xado na kc xang mrameng problema xana wag mo nang dagdagan...buhay q nlang crain mo wag un xa knea...xumoxobra ka na kc eh..kng di mo lang alam...mxado kcing ****-********...kea un...pg naicip mo na babalik aq xeo...(think agen...) ur not that powerful to pull me back to you...cnaxabe q na xeo ngaun plang...di m q kaya..ur jst wasting time nd efort on nothing...(cge xabhin mo na player aq, heartbreaker...anu pa???) cge, wat else can u say??? kc aawayin tlaga kta pg di mo tinigilan c *toot*..paxalamat ka hangang d2 lng aq...wag ka lng mgpapakita xaken...bka kng anu mgawa q xeo...pg gnawa q nman un aq nman un mgkakaproblema...kea..umiwas iwas ka na habagn d mxadong malala i2ng ngyayari xaqn...pg xumobra tlaga..NAKO!!! lagot ka!!! kung tinitignana qta pra na qng papatay...dnt even think about comin near me...mgdahan dahan ka na! bka bgla ka nlang nadisgraxa djan...mlay mo my umaabang xeo na mamamatay tao...(djan lng xa tabe tabe..ingat kalng xa mga ginagawa mo..) kc i have my ways of knowing..wg klang mgkakamali..one wrong muv..(tsk tsk tsk)...xooooo...un...dea threat lng nman abot mo ngaun...peo i knw wat ur planin...kea..mgdahan dahan ka..bka xa xu2nod death warrant na abot mo! wel my point is TIGILANG MO NA C *TOOT*...pg hnde...anu gagawin q xeo???..wag ka lng mgkakamali..u dnt knw hu ur dealing with...i was supos to tell u dis knina kxo bka kng anu pa magawa q chaka mxakit un puxo q kanina di ngaun...kea...mgvaxabaxa ka nlng..bsta tandaan mo...pgdi mo tinigilan...mraming pwdeng mangyare...kng ayaw m q mkitang galet..wg kng gumawa ng karumaldumal, lam q mga cnaxabe mo xa mga tao...pg meon pa qng nramdaman o nabalitaan o mkita o marinig...nako....wag kng mgpapakita saqn kng ayw mo madala xa ospital ng di oras..

woen wid a heart

2004-10-10T04:04:00.000+08:00

hanep, ang women wid a heart ay ixang play na ayoko nang ulit ulitin...hi q na matek kung di lng ngtatanung ng mga questions dati q pa un tunulugan...kung di ba nman tlaga makita at maintindihan.ehh panu mo mauunawaan un..(nax mauunawaan...hahaha) ay peo kelangan eh...kea cnubukan ko nlan gxa intindihin...ixang part ng naitindihan q du..un iniwan nung girl un guy...u lng ang natataning naxa utak ko naka tatak...bkt? dahil...........wahahaha secret....i can relate xe in a way...magbabaxa nlang aq ng utak ng mga tao...un kxama q d2 ay mdjo lng tinulugan na q..k lng un..di rin ata xa nka2log xa play dhil xa mga katabe nea...mukang pagod a pagod...(kala q ba my gaawin dapat yan...tsk tsk tsk...)...aun...m.y.m.p ang sounds q ngaun...(tenx xa cd olen...) aun..kc mdjo madaling araw na bka pg gpa2g2g aq ng maroon 5 lhat ng tao magcing...mdjo lng tama yan kim, tama yan...haha kakacra na ng ulo..kinakauxap ko na xarili q...ala pa qn balak ma2log xe nawalan ng ng ixang araw ang aking wikend...at linggo na aaucin q pa un kwa2 q...(puchang ama...) aun...tpos...haayyy...xarap ng tulog ng kxama q..mdjo lng...prang di na nea natapos ang kaneang inagawa...na2log nalng xa............(",)......nagugutom na ...alam q na PACIT CANTON (ai ai ai...ixang tao djan tatawa...)...hulaan neo kun anung oras na....(03:44 a.m) xaya noh...ay hindi pla my ixang taong maga2let xaqn at xa2bhin na..."natulog ka ba?" hahaha...ui concered ixang tao dan...bk ganun full of energy pa q prang ala aqng pinanuod na play na pagka habahaba,mdjo lng...kung cellfon cguro aq..mukang full att pa q..peo un kxama q nagchacharge low batt na eh..ai di lng pla xa..pti mga ibang tao pa pla..mga low batt...hahaha joke lng...pancin q lng..puro tngkol xa maxaxakit na bagay ang aking mahiwagang blog...kea mdjo palitan natin...xandale 2ngkol xan ba toh? aun 2ngkol dun xa play..peo mxaya rin ng onti xe nkac-lay aq...o dba??? mlau nga lng xa..peo reach prin ng mga mata q...di kea xa na2naw dun...(hindi nman cguro...) aq kea na2naw...oo...na2naw xa xorang init xa gym...di q na matake...(nabaliw nlang aq......) inde gutom lng yn...gutom lng yan...xandale mang gcing nga ng tao...mgtxt kea aq ky..."48" (ang mga slow...kayo ay mgturbo...)...hahaha...magcing kea un...joke...(tie check is brought to you by.....04:00 a.m) oh dba?....tpos et pa mxaya...mkaonlyn aq xa ym..lhat ng tao nananaginip...yan nagicing un kxama (ui d q yan ginicing ah...kusa xang nagicing...nyak defenxive...)...yan matapos na kea nae ang inagawa nea...mdjo lng...hahaha..gnu na ba khaba eto? hahaha...mukang mhaba na..cge...ilalagay q nlang ang aking kwento ax ibang post..wahahaha...peo hindi ngaun....xa ibang araw...wahahaha...cge...hangang dito nlang...

2004-10-10T03:15:00.000+08:00

ui oreo...xarap yan......mxarap kxama...pag nalulungkot ka xe kakainin mo lng...hahaha kala neo kung ano noh? mga green..joke lng...addict aq xa cookies..pinaka favorite q ay oreo...hahaha....oreo...oreo...oreo...=)

apos na ang paghihirap

2004-10-08T11:52:00.000+08:00

haay xalamt pos na test...di naq nagaaral pg break times...di q na rin iignorin c "oreo" wahaha...kawawa nman xa xe di q na napapancin...xe xobra 22k xa aral di week..kea un...ngtatampo xa...peo ok na ngaun xe ala nang test...di na kelangan maghirap.
haaayyy...ai..nababaxa mga iniicp nea...kea prang di na nea kelangan mgxalita xe...lm q na...galing noh??? naun lng yan ngyare...oh dba?....po di nman palage...paminxan minxan lng...kea xabe nia..prang aq daw naiintindihan q xa peo un iba daw hindi...hahaha xempre aq pa...nababaxa q utak nea, tsaka kelanan q rin xa intindiin kc u know...hahaha
ganun eh..kea un...peo un iba di q maintindihan, xa lng tlaga un nababaxa q un utak...
pgbinabaxa q un sa knaea, minxan nakikixabay yn iba...pag dumadaan....ang weird noh??
lam q weirdo aq...tagal na...ngaun neo lng nlaman...hahaha....

nax ang sweet naman

2004-10-02T02:31:00.000+08:00

my gash nkakakkilig nman ang mga simpleng bagay na ginagawa nea..na tila prang normal lng sa knea pgdating xaqn iba na..ang spexal nman nea...super...ang sweet pa nea..xobra kea nga mhal na mal q xa eh...kc....1st of all she's mbaet, nice, sweet, caring. thotful..lhat na nga bagay na ninanais mong mhanap lalo na xa mhal mo...pg anjan xa fast pace heartbeat bigla..prangonti nlan atakihen ka na xa puso xa xobrang gnda nea...pg nakngiti xa, na22naw ka...hhaaayy..pg in lab tlga ang tao kng anunanu ang ngyayare xa utak...ngpapantasya, di na maktulog kakaisip xa crux, mula pggisin hangan xa pg2log xa ang nsa icip, pg nwala bglang maaalala o di kaya mamimiss..iba na tlaga pag inlab ang tao...ala ng pake xa mga nakaraan na pangyayare xe wlang ibang ina2pag kundi ang kaneang mhal na crux...tpos...un..

haaayyy...ang aking crux..xana lng in a way preho kme ng tingin xa na lng...xe mdjo dali xa mgxawa...peo k lng un ala aqng pake..khit mxakan ulit aq ng lubuxan, 2luyan...ok lng...sus...plage nlang ngyayare yan xaken..kea..xanay na q...msggs2hin q pa na mxaktan kesa di mgmahal moh...ms mganda nang mxaktan, umiyak dhil lng xa knea...peo di ka nman mxaya..peo xempre xa mhal mo ala kng pake xa mga cnasabi ng mga tao...kc kng xa ang rason kng bkt n222o ka mgmhal...

mgkkwen2 aq..bsta lhat i2 ngyare widin dis wik na npaka gnda at npaka tagal (bkt mtagal?? 3 na aqng di pa n22log..kea ganun)...bsta tngkol 2 xa kiig moments q xa crux q na..mhal q...wahaha..eto na:

1) xang tym mgkaxama kme..tpos tahimik lng aq...kumakain xa ng rice eh aq my gnagwa xe
sci...oh my gosh cnubuan nea q grabeh..kilig.....
2) ixang morning ngpnta cla ng frend nea xa rum, hiinahanap aq..(nax)..un tpos di nea nlaman na di aq na22log..pna upo nea aq xa chair na inipian nea share kmwe..tpos xabay ngrest xa ng head xa sholders q....hahaha kilig nnman...tpos...on tym mdjo ngka xeloxan (kc kulang xa 2og; nwalan ng paxenxa....) un tpos ng 1-4-3 (anak ng puch oh)....un...wat else???? hahaha kea prang di hlata na di aw n22log k2.....xe prang ala lng peo prang my kauxap kanman na multo...aq na yun....haaayyy..oreo..hope ur filin de sa,me...hahaha ka kilig ng eh..cge unril hir nlang an2k na q xa wakas after ilang arw ce bye2

naglalabas ng galet ky toot

2004-10-02T01:39:00.000+08:00

shox...iba na tlaga toh...i mean..3 days widout sleep pra lang xa ixang mahiwagang math project...dame pang aaralin...test na rin next week...anu byan...ngaalala na 2loy c "oreo". peo mykxalanan aq dun...mxama aqng bata...xori ah...xe...dameng temptation pagalis nea knina xa skul...lm q mgagalet nnman yan...haaayy...ndun un mga x-crux(es) q...damn...bkt prang sadyan pinagla2pit kme ng tadhana...xana lng diba tantanan nea aq...npka papancn nea...wat b*yat*h..wahaha...prang xarap xabihin xa kanea na, "get on wid ur layp, tantanan mo na nga aq..mghanap ka na ng iba xe...ala ka na...bhala ka na xa buhay mo pake q xeo.."...wahahaha kxo ang xama q pgcnbe q dun xa papancinna un...(upakan q un eh..)...kainis xa...napaka papancin, lm na nea na i love sum1 else...pede wag pagpilitan ang xarili...wag mxadong papancin...(un tinatamaan..cguraduhin kau tlaga..bka di tau ngkakaintindihan..). tpos eto pa ..nxabe q un real name ni "oreo" pucha nadulas aq knina, nwala xa icip q..di bale pg pinagkalat nea un 22ohan ng galet aq xa knaea...pu.....putik na yan...wag ni alng xubukan xe ga2win q tlaga un kala nea...g*** pla un eh...lang hiya..ang isnob daw xabe ni "oreo" ang wateber nea..pgkalat daw xa mga tao na galet aq kung cnu2 ang mga tinatanung...anu yan??? anu yan??? pauxo mo...lang hiya...tpos tatanungtanungin saqn kng bkt aq galet??? nung klaseng tanung yan..icipin mga nea...yko na xa kauxapin...bhala na xa...xa lumapit pg my gs2 xang xabihin...my pa-snob, papancin effects pa xang nala2man eh...pti c "string" naptawag xa bhay at tinatanung kng galet aq...puchang amang buhay to oh...puro gni2 nlng ba plage...xabe saqn ng kaibigan nea..iba na saw ang approtch q xa kanea..prang di nman qilala ang ixat ixa...eh. anu gs2 neang mngyare???bumalik na mxaxamang pnahon ng buhay q??? mgdusa xa...please lang..."miss, miss paki tigil lang please ang iyong pagpapantasya hindi ka na nakakatuwa...." haay nako yan babaeng yan lng kwenta...wag xang umaxa...upakan q un eh...chang ma oh...ang wateber nea....asa ka pa??? wag ka na!!!!!!!!!

haaay

2004-09-26T14:15:00.000+08:00

anu ba meon sa kanea?? bkt q xa nagus2han...malay q...i just follow my puso...hahaha ang taglish...bsta...i just fall in loe, i dont force myself..it just happens

If I be so inclined to climb up beside you,
Would you tell me that the time just isnt right?
And if I ever find the key you hide so well,
Will you tell me that I can spend the night?

Leavin your smell on my coat,
leavin your taste on my shoulder.
I still fail to understand what it is about this woman.

If I could bottle up the chills that you give me
I would keep them in a jar next to my bed.
And If I should ever draw a picture of a woman
It is you that would come flowing from my pen

Leavin your clothes on the floor,
Making me walk out the door
And I still fail to understand what it is about this woman.

Helplessly melting as I stand next to the sun.
As she burns me, I am screaming out for more
Drink every drop of liquid heat that I've become.
Pop me open, spoon me out on to the floor.

Leavin your smell on my coat,
leavin your taste on my shoulder,
I still fail to understand, fail to understand

Leavin your smell on my coat,
leavin your taste on my shoulder.
I still fail to understand what it is about this woman.

she will be loved

2004-09-26T14:05:00.000+08:00

she will be loved ohh...ntandaan q tuloy xa....

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

[in the background]
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbyeYeah

[softly]
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Try so hard to say goodbye

2004-09-26T14:01:00.000+08:00

ixa sa mga kanta q ky "oreo" Where you are seems to be
As far as an eternity
Outstretched arms open hearts
And if it never ends then when do we start?
I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive

Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you comeback
I have some things to say

How does it feel to know you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I
Dream away everyday
Try so hard to disregard
The rhythm of the rain that drops
And coincides with the beating of my heart

I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive

Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you comeback
I have some things to say

How does it feel to know you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I feel

2004-09-26T13:33:00.000+08:00

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Cause Im broken when Im lonesome
And I dont feel right when youre gone away

You've gone away, you don't feel me anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
Theres so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Cause Im broken when Im open
And I dont feel like I am strong enough
Cause Im broken when Im lonesome
And I dont feel right when youre gone away

Cause Im broken when Im open
And I dont feel like I am strong enough
Cause Im broken when Im lonesome
And I dont feel right when youre gone away

Cause Im broken when Im lonesome
And I dont feel right when youre gone

You've gone away, you don't feel me anymore

2004-09-25T15:34:00.000+08:00

haay...nako...si "oreo" cnaktan aq...bkit gan2...ang pagibig...(hahaha)...byan d pain never stops tlaga...kakarecover q lng dun xa isa...eto nnman ang isa pa!!! tpos nlaman q crux rin nia ang kaibigan q...ARAY!!!!!!....tpos...nun ngppractis kme xa softbol...cnichir nia un kjaibigan q...di nman xa ngseselos aq peo...pran ala aq dun...prang ang invisible q...tpos...ngalet un kaibigan q sa kanea dhil tinamaan ng bol xa face...tpos iniyakan nia...pucha nman ohh...di nman tlaga sa ngse2los aq...peo...sus nman...tpos...ang ginawa q...tinakbuhan q un "pare" ko...nguxap kme at nginuman xa txt...pra ntangsl ang utak xa problema...hhaaayyy...nako..bkt ba ganyan...
as lovers go:
she said "i've gotta be honest,
you're wasteing your time if you're fishing round here."
and i said "you must be mistaken,
cause i'm not fooling...this feeling is real"
she said...she said "you gotta be crazy,
What do you take me for? Some kind of easy mark?
"No, you've got wits, you've got looks, you've got passion, but I swear that you've got me all wrong."
all wrong.
all wrong.
but you got me...
i'll be true, i'll be useful...
i'll be cavalier...i'll be yours my dear.
and i'll belong to you...
if you'll just let me through.
this is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it by hesitating.
and this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?
and i said "i've gotta be honest
i've been waiting for you all my life."
for so long i thought i was asylum bound,
but just seeing you makes me think twice.
and being with you here makes me sane,
i fear i'll go crazy if you leave my side.
you've got wits...you've got looks,
you've got passion but are you brave enough to
leave with me tonight?
tonight.
tonight.
but you've got me...
i'll be true, i'll be useful...
i'll be cavalier...i'll be yours my dear.
and i'll belong to you...
if you'll just let me through.
this is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it by hesitating.
and this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?
this is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it by hesitating.
and this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?

panakip butas

2004-09-19T15:35:00.000+08:00

hay...as much as i want to get her of my mind..mahirap peo..kelangan ganun...m bago akong crux...peo i dnt know if she's just a "pankip butas' ky *toot*...but how shud i know...wen were together...prang ders suthing between us...iba un paraan ng pakikpagusap ko sa kanea keysa sa iba niang mga kaibigan...nd..pg anjan xa... mbilis un heartbeat ko...i always smile at her...plagi ko xang jinojoke..nd wen she's not luking naktingin ako sa knea...gosh...anu ba to??...kinikklig ako sa kanea...but she's not hat prety...but theres sumthing in her...shox...tpos hinahanap ko xa...nd namimiss ko xa..shox..nd prang halos everyday mgkasam kame...ng lunch at paminsan dismissal...oh shox..anu na ba to... di ko lam kng nakagetover na ko ky *toot* o panakip butas lng si *toot*...di ko na alam kng anu ba ito...i mean..plagi xang andjan...pgnakakusap ko xa...prang nwawala un..pain na nabgay ni *toot*...at prang comfortable aqng kasama xa plage...haaayyy hangan di2 nlang...

isang tao djan

2004-09-12T14:46:00.000+08:00

isang tao djan panira ng buhay. ganda na ng plano...biglang sumulpot bsta bsta...yan tuloy...this is just great..tlagang my blak xang crain un mundo q..bkt pa kc nia cnabe ky "string" na kelangan na nia sbhin saqn agad...bwicit un...kung cno man un..panira xa...yan 2loy natear ni "string" un heart q..kc nman eh..sna lng kc di c "string" nkinig dun..kc nman bket ba!!!!

ang mga tao tlaga...nwei heres a song

muntik nang maabot ang langit
at makupko ka saking mga kamay
karapat dapat nga bang mapasakin
ang iyong pagibig na tinataglay

ilang ulit na rin
na ako'y nagsumamo
upang ang iyong puso ay aking makamit
muntik nang maabot ang langit

walang tatapat saking katapatan
higit pa ito sa kanilang kayamanan
sann nga ba ako nagkamali?
at ako'y iyong pinahirapan

ilang ulit narin
na ako'y magsumamo
upang ang iyong puso
ay aking makamit
muntik nang maabot ang langit

ang langit sa iyong puso muntik nang maabot
mgo'y ika'y oisang alaalang kay pait
muntik nang maabot ang langiy...ang langit

haay...buhay...maghihintay tlaga ako para lang sa kanya...
kahit gano pa katagal yun...kc mhal ko xa...

ang sakit

2004-09-06T06:12:00.000+08:00

ang sakit nman nun gnawa nia..sana lng hindi sa birthday ko...kc...mdjo lng...makakabadtrip...kung di ba nman tlaga..ay nako ewan...ok lng sken na sbhin nia un khit kelan nia gusto khit crain nia pasko ko ang bagong taon ko..wag lang ang birthday ko please...kea nga ang grit ng mga tao "happy birthday" dba??? yan tuloy nkakabad trip..peo..watver is her dscicsion i have to put up wiht is kc mhal ko xa..sobra...so kng anu man sbhin nia..kelangan ko respetuhin...kung nwalan xa ng trust sakin..ok lang..kung sbhin nia na iwasan/tigilan q na xa..gagawin ko..para lng sa kanea..kc nga mahal ko xa..di nman sa umasa ako peo..lam ko from d very begini na wala akong pag-asa..peo cnubukn ko lng..eh..wala talaga..loyal na loya xa eh..ala akong magagawa dun..ako rin loyal sa kanea..khit na umabot pa ng ilang taon di parin a ko nakakaget over sa kanea..ay malay ko na...sbe nga ni momi ances,ate tricia,at encey...maybe she's not the one for you..your not meant to be...haayy..peo sb rin nila...its her loss.. she doesn't know wat kind of friends are you...haayy...ramdam ko parin ang sakit na binigsay nia sakin...hinding hindi ko ito nakakalimutan...hangang ngayon...ang sakit ng puso ko...grabeh...ngaun imiiwas na xa sakin...sana hindi ko nlang inamin sa kanea para di na nagkaganito...xana di ko nlang cnabi...ka pa-hoonest effect pa ako sa kanea...ay nako...nawaln narin xa ng tiwala sakin...ok fine cge i ca deal with that in one way or another...peo gusto ko na xang
i-let go pero hindi ko magawa...kc lam q mahirap gawen un...ay nako...tatantananan ko na xa...kung kaya ko sana makaya ko...ayyy

crazy for this girl

2004-09-06T05:52:00.000+08:00

She rolls the window down
And she
Talks over the sound Of the cars that pass us by
And I don't know why
But she's changed my mind

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl

She was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down
And what was I thinking when
The world didn't end
Why didn't I know what I know now

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl

Right now
Face to face
All my fears Pushed aside
And right now
I'm ready to spend the rest of my life
With you

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl

shiver

2004-09-06T05:46:00.000+08:00

You build me up
You knock me down
Provoke a smile And make me frown
You are the queen of runaround
You know it's true

You chew me up
And spit me out
Enjoy the taste
I leave in your mouth
You look at me
I look at you
Neither of us know what to do

There may not
Be another way to your heart
So I guess I'd better find a new way in
I shiver when I hear your name
Think about you but it's not the same
I won't be satisfied 'till I'm under your skin

Immobilized by the thought of you
Paralyzed by the sight of you
Hypnotized by the words you say
Not true but I believe 'em anyway

So come to bed It's getting late
There's no more time for us to waste
Remember how my body tastes
You feel your heart begin to race

ang sakit

2004-09-05T16:43:00.000+08:00

Fuck It (I Don't Want You Back)

2004-08-23T21:13:00.000+08:00

Whoa oh oh

Ooh hooh

No No No

See, I dont know why I liked you so much

I gave you all, of my trustI told you,

I loved you, now thats all down the drain

Ya put me through pain, I wanna let u know how I feel

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw em out

Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw em out

Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

You thought, you could

Keep this shit from me, yeah

Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story

Ya played me, ya even gave him head

Now ya askin for me back

Ya just another act, look elsewhere

Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw em out

Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Ya questioned, did I care

You could ask anyone, I even said

Ya were my great one

Now its, over, but I do admit I'm sad.

It hurts real bad, I cant sweat that, cuz I loved a hoe

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw em out

Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

ayoko nah!!!!!

2004-08-23T21:00:00.000+08:00

parang i' just wasting time,,,on you ***...kasi...di ka nman naki2nig...plagi mung cnasai na ala akong pakialam...nakakapuno nah...kng gnyan nalnang palagi!!!!
kng ayaw mo makinig...edi wag!!!!...naka2piss-off ka...indi ko na kayang my waste ng time sa taong hindi nman nakikinig sakin...ahh...f*ck...pti si **e*..cnasbi skin na ala narin aqng pake...bayan lahat nlang...kea d nman sa nggive up naq...na iirita lng aq...xori nlang sa mga tao na umaasa na mapi2gil q si ***...nakakapuno eh...kung di ka b nman sbihan ng "as if u care...blah blah"..ay f*ck it...kng gnyan lng...nka2 bullsh*t...lm q sbi q d aq ganun kdaling mggive up...peo...my patience is runnung short...i cnt take this sh*t anymore...AYOKO NA!!!!!!
eto na ang huling pagpipigil na naririnig nio saqin...last na tlaga toh...after this wala nah...ksai cnasbi ng 2 tao..ala aqng pake...edi pakita q na ala aqng pake..gnyanan nah!!!!

*** PLEASE...WAG MO NANG ITULOY...NAGMAMAKAAWA YUNG MGA FRIENDS MOH...PLEASE...WAG MO NANG ITULOY...PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE...PLEASE

yan...dats da last....wla na...kng ala aqng pake...hah!!..ala na tlaga
manhid na q..xori nlang...

WHY ***??? WHY???

2004-08-11T13:23:00.000+08:00

WHY ***,DON'T DO THIS ITS NOT WORTH IT. PLEASE..I BEG OF YOU,DON'T DO THIS..IT'S NOT WORTH DOING..***..PLEASE...DONT DO THIS..PANO NA YUNG MGA TAONG MAIIWAN MO..OH..SINO NGAYON YUNG WALANG PAKIALAM..AKO BA?? AT LEAST IN A WAY I'M TELLING YOU..I CARE FOR YOU!!!
KAHIT NA INIWAN KITA..KAHIT NA MAY MAHAL NA AKONG IBA..
MAY PAKI PARIN AKO SAYO..DI KO LANG MASABI..DI KO LANG..MAPAKITA
MAHIRAP EXPALINE..PERO..PELASE..WAG MO NANG ITULONG ANG BINABALAK MO..
HINDI LANG AKO YUNG NAKIKIUSAP..MARAMI PANG TAO..NAGSASABI SAKIN NA PIGILAN DAW KITA
KAYA I'M DOING THIS..BUT NOT JUST FOR THE SAKE OF THE OTHER PEOPLE...PERO KASALI NA RIN AKO DUN..PLEASE..I'M TELLING YOU..WAG NA!!!!
MARAMING MAWAWALA SAYO..PAG GINAWA MO YUN..PLEASE..***..NAGMAMAKAAWA AKO...SAYO..PLEASE..WAG MO NANG GAWIN..IT'S JUST NOT RIGHT..NAPAGPAKA***** KA..
PEOPLE WHO CARE FOR YOU..PANO NA SILA??? KAHIT NA SBIHIN MO MAKAKALIMIUTAN KA RIN..DALA PARIN NILA YUN..KAHIT NA ANUNG SABIHIN MO...SIGURO YOUR THINGKIN NA HINDI AKO KASALI DUN SA MGA TAONG MAY PAKIALAM..MAYBE YOUR JUST THINGKIN NA I'M JUST DOING THIS PARA SA KANILA...FINE..BAHALA KA KUNG ANO GUSTO MONG ISIPIN..BASTA...WE ARE TELLING YOU,WAG MO NANG GAWIN...WAG MO NANG ITULOY..PLEASE!!!!!PLEASE!!!!PLEASE!!!
KAHIT WAG KA SAKIN MAKINIG..BASTA SA MGA SINASABI NALANG NG IBANG TAO NA: WAG MO NA DAW ITULOY..IT'S OK NA WAG KANG MAKINIG SAKIN..BASTA..INTINDIHIN MO NALANG YUNG IBANG TAO..THE OTHER PEOPLE..WHO LOVE AND CARE ABOUT YOU ***..ISIPIN MO SILA..ISIPIN MO RIN ANG SARILI MO..MAY UTAK KA ***,YOUR SMART..PLEASE THINGK ABOUT IT..WALA KA PA NGA SA KALAHATI NG BUHAY MO..YOUR JUST IN THE BEGINNING..SAYANG..PAG TINULOY MO YUN..PLEASE...MAKINIG KA NAMAN..SA MGA SINASABI NG IBANG TAO..KAHIT WAG NA SAKIN..THAT'S ALL I'M ASKING FROM YOU...IF YOU WANT...JUST CALL ME...PARA MAGKAINTINDIHAN...PLAESE..THINK ABOUT IT!!!!

test na

2004-08-02T17:39:00.000+08:00

exams na...super sunsod sa pg aaral ang mga tao...peo...ngpahinga muna ako..kc..ngoover load na brain ko..peo kailangan eh...kealangan pumasa kundi......lagot...nd after da test ok na wla ng prob. sa skul prob. nlang sa buhay ang kelangan ausin...pg naus na wla kan ng prob. un skul mo nlang...mgka2hinga ka na ng maaus..ay buhay..cge gots ta go..till nxt time..

ayoko na mangdamay ng iba

2004-07-26T18:41:00.000+08:00

yoko sbin sa isang tao un rison dahi baka my ibang taong mdamay..
yoko sbhin saknya bka kng ano pa gawin nia saknila..kea..its betwin me and her..
ako ngumpisa ako ang tatapos..khit anung mganyaari di ko ddamy u 2 taong yun..
inosentang mga bata..khit kulit kulitin pa nia ko..di ko sasabhin un rison..
although in a way alam na nia..peo..di ko ssbhin kng bet..kht ano pa sbhin nia sakin
di ko ssbhin..bhanla xa..OVER MY DEAD BODY!!!!!

2004-07-19T07:15:00.000+08:00

I'm not a perfect person There's many things I wish I didn't do But I continue learningI never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for meTo change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt youIt's something I must live with everydayAnd all the pain I put you through I wish that I could take it all away And be the one who catches all your tears Thats why i need you to hear I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I goThat I just want you to knowI've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you I've found a reason to show A side of me you didn't know A reason for all that I do And the reason is you

burn

2004-07-19T07:09:00.000+08:00

Girl, understand why See it's burning me to hold onto this I know this is something I gotta do But that don't mean I want toWhat I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I justI feel like this is coming to an end And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt youI gotta let it burn

It's gonna burn for me to say this But it's comin from my heart It's been a long time coming But we done been fell apart Really wanna work this out But I don't think ya gonna change ya I do but you don't Think it's best we go our separate ways Tell me why I should stay in this relationship When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal withI think that you should let it burn

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to Even though this might bruise you Let it burn Let it burn Gotta let it burn.
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you Hate the thought of her being with someone else But you know that it's over You know that it was through Let it burn Let it burn Gotta let it burn

Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to Got somebody here but I want you Cause the feelin ain't the same find myself Callin' her your name Ladies tell me do you understand? Now all my fellas do you feel my pain? It's the way I feelI know I made a mistake Now it's too late I know she ain't comin back What I gotta do now To get my shorty back Ooo ooo ooo ooooh Man I don't know what I'm gonna do Without my booo You've been gone for too long It's been fifty-eleven days, um-teen hours Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to Even though this might bruise youLet it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn) Let it burn (gotta let it burn) Gotta let it burn Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you Hate the thought of her being with someone else But you know that it's over you know that it was through Let it burn Let it burn Gotta let it burn

I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh) I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooohOoh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh ooohSo many days, so many hoursI'm still burnin' till you return

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to Even though this might bruise you Let it burn Let it burn Gotta let it burn Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you Hate the thought of her being with someone else ut you know that it's overYou know that it was through Let it burn Let it burn Gotta let it burn

ay nako

2004-07-19T06:43:00.000+08:00

ay nako ang buhay...daming kalokohan...ang gulo gulo lalo na pagdating sa pagibig..mga tao pag nagseselos daming kalokohan ang naiisip katulad ng isang taong kilala ko kung ano ano ang mga pinagsasabi...tungkol saken she's so evil selos kasi..dahil di ko na daw siya mahal..uh whatever..ang sama niya...tapos she's saying that pinaasa ko daw siya..niloko ko at ginago...ko daw siya..but i told her from the start that..........un...and she said " it's ok" but now sinasabe niya na gago ako....oohhh please...hindi ko naman siya pinaasa siya and umasa..umasa siya na....(lam nio na)..but i told her na di ko yun gagawin...and now she's telling me na mali yung mga iniimply ko...excuse me...i'm not stupid to know what she's been up to..sinisiraan niya si..*toot* pinapakita niya na ang sama sama ni *toot* per hindi naman pala yung mga paninirang ginagawa nia kay *toot* siya pala ang gumagawa nun..ay nako..mga tao talaga...basta pagdating sa pagmamahal nasisiraan ng baet..kung ano ano ang mga nagagawa..ay nako...

masakit daw

2004-07-18T18:45:00.000+08:00

masakit daw ang nararamdaman ni "skittles" dahil daw iniwan ko siya,halos everyday daw umiiyak at gusto na daw niyang mamatay..(ay ako rin..para magkasama kame..kasi mahal ko parin siya..)pero..i can't ***** her because..i'm afraid to hurt her again and i want her to be free i knw ther are many others there besides me..but she told me she would never look for another one who would take m place because there is only one me that she loves that no one would ever replace..so..from what she told me i knew that she still loved me..but i can't show her that i love her too..because she would be expecting me to ***** her..but as of now we're just friends..i can feel her pain because i love her too i just left her because i though there was someone new..i was wrong..i made a mistake..i shouldn't have left her till i was sure..i was so stupid to leave the person i love and i gave my whole heart to..how could i leave her without a reason..i was so stupid do that..to hurt her without a reason..i know shes really hurting right now..but i have one reason..and she knows that reason..for once naramdaman ko ryung nararamdaman ni "skittles" ang sakit pala..well i'm sorry nalang..sorry..it's all that i can say..ang hirap pala ng buyah niya..palaging depressed..di niya siguro kayang ngumiti o tumawa dahil sa sobrang sakit ng nararamdaman niya..OUCH..

burn

2004-07-18T15:53:00.000+08:00

saya saya

2004-07-18T03:44:00.000+08:00

ganda ng araw ko my nalama ako na dapat kong ka saya..isangtaong kinamumuhian ko ay aalis na...hahaha(ang sama ko..)..hindi na masisira ang buhay kong magulo at sirasira..ang saya ko..hindi ko na siya makikita..hindi na ako mababadtrip..wala nang flirt na biyatch..=)..ang saya saya ko talaga nung nakaman ko un..(sino bang hindi matutuwa kung un taong panira ng buhay mo ay aalis na at hindi mo na makikita)..ay nako..tagal ko na yan pinagdadasal buteh nalang sinagot nako ni God..aalis narin siya sa wakas..thank you..ang saya saya..hahaha..wala nang asumot na papansin sakin..hahahaha..=)

2004-07-12T07:46:00.000+08:00

gosh..my pasok kame khapon..super nakakapagod..ang boring pa la kong silay.. tapos..tumawag ako sa knya (ky *toot*)...inaantok ako..tpos..pnapatolog ako.. nung katext ko nman siya nakatulog ako..di nako nkareply..ay nako..ang panget and then super ang init sa room ko..nakakaantok..pa classroom nkatulog nga ako nung nagquiz kame..kasi subrang antok na ko that time..tpos..un nasa isip ko pa si "skittles"..ay nako.."skittles"...ang boring wala siya..hindi ko nakita.. tpos tomorrow my pasok na one day lang un wikend namen..buisit..nakakabanas..katulad ni *toot*..ay nako..ndjo "dull" un araw ko khapon..and slight na hindi..ay nako..damnsh**

aDDikt

..ahh di parin ako makaget over! langya!

.. embrace so mugh tighter, this could be our last togethter.

much has been said

...malapet na magbirthday ang nine!

kababawan..

im sorry... i was hungry at the same time jealous!

something to talk about...

can't do anything

pano kaya yun?

para sayo...

wala lang

long time na ah!

cloud 09!!!!

damn right!!!!

why is it so complicated?

screw you!!!

why?

Caught up!

she rocks my world but when will she rule it?

weekend...

let me love you...

LQ!!!!! WAG NMAN!!!!

nangyare noon hangang ngayon

sorry trixia....

it's all in my head....

di ko alam

nakakabato na

baby taz...read this

tungkol kahapon (nov. 29, 2004)

Ang tindi!!!!

my namimiss ako

through with you

dahan dahan ka lng

woen wid a heart

apos na ang paghihirap

nax ang sweet naman

naglalabas ng galet ky *toot*

haaay

she will be loved

panakip butas

isang tao djan

ang sakit

crazy for this girl

shiver

ang sakit

Fuck It (I Don't Want You Back)

ayoko nah!!!!!

WHY ***??? WHY???

test na

ayoko na mangdamay ng iba

burn

ay nako

masakit daw

burn

saya saya

naglalabas ng galet ky toot